Hey Guyss... I had Moved my Blog... so i won't update here anymore... Thanz... Thanz for always supporting my Blog... ThanZzz...

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I have a frenz... okie.. i will name him XX.... I had juz pissed him off... reali pissed him off.. tis is how i feel................. if ya is reading my blog now.. and is reading tis post now... i juz wannna say a SORRI... hope ya dun mind wad i had juz said to u.... *SORRI*

XX is a veri good fren of mine... he treats mi veri veri good... Juz like a elder bro... dote mi, sanyang mi, pei mi, treat mi.... juz like reali a reali elder bro.. BUt wad i juz did is pissed him off... and he maybe will dulan mi forever~ and ever~

He juz jio mi to catch a movie wif him tomolo... and i juz reject him... as i dun even have a single cent to buy a can of coke.. so movie.. is juz dreaming... he said.. he will lend mi money~ and i oso dun wan.... i told him.. i dun wanna owe pple money now.. i dun feel good... i dun wan tt feeling... u understand.. i hate owing pple money unless i reali have no way out... but juz a movie... i can juz save it up lo...

Cuz once... he play a joke wif mi.. say tt i treated him like a "Carrot Head"*dun understand den suan liao*... i reali sad when he said tt... but tis is the first time i can't take the joke.. i take it veri serious... reali veri serious.. and i rejected alot of things b'cuz juz of a Carrot Head thingy.. i juz dunno y.... if ya guys in my shoe den u all will understand ba~... but i reali dun have tt feeling b4... *sad* Although 18 for most of u think is still young... but for mi... is a start of another aim... i wanna be like a young adult.... Reali... so.. i am sorri XX.... i dun reali mean to hurt ya~ sorri~~ haiz.. i reali dunno wad to say now.. i juz had the feeling tt... the distance between u and mi is getting further... keke~ maybe b'cuz of my own programmes and urs ba~... but i stil hope ya enjoy alot... okie~

But dun worry~ when u need any ears from mi... i will always be there... but i think u won't find mi... cuz in ur heart there is another person hu can let u ears and even have u some source.. keke~ ya noe hu i toking abt~ keke..... *bLEahZzzzz*

If ya no longer angry leave mi a msg in my tagboard... thanz.... *take care*

I get tis from one of my frenz... He wrote it in the forum.. and i started to read and think abt it..................................

Mysteries and dark secrets.......

Humans have secrets to hide their true-self from others.Have secrets to make themselves seem better then they really are. Have secrets prevent others from knowing what they have done, normally things seen as shameful or wrong. Have secrets so they can have an advantage over their opponents, especially when they are weaker then them. It���s like wearing a pretty mask over an ugly face, without it one will feel insecure and exposed. Living in a world like this, there���s no way you can avoid those people. Who to trust who not to trust, there���s no way to confirm it till the day he or her betrays you. It���s only up to you yourself to see whether you will get hurt or not. Just remember what he or she lost is a true friend while you just got a new name to add to your ���list of assholes���. {^.^}v

Lastly to avoid being backstabbed at the workplace, never talk about work or others in the company with your colleagues. There���s no ���the right��� way to live your life. The most important thing is to be happy in whatever you���re doing and live the life you want to live.

From wad i think... he is rite~ we will nv noe... how is the person reali are... till the dae he/she betray u... tis is wad i reali agree wif... REALI agree.... And everione will have their own secrets... is juz tt u believe tt person and u wanna tell him/her anot... Reali true... keke~ Some pple may seems like telling u alot... but maybe the person has oso kept inside he/her-self.... keke~ one dae... if another frenz noe more better den u... dun worry~ cuz not everione noes everithing...

I ever have tis veri good buddy/best frenz... i believe her alot... we r reali like veri good.. no matter wad happen i will share wif her... and she seems like sharing wif mi alot too.... but.... till the dae... i heard something from my another frenz... i was reali hurt and cry~ she betray mi... and say i am a bitch and wadever~ since the dae... i had nv believe her.... although now it seems like mi and her are still good buddy~ but NOPE... i dun believe her anymore... cuz i noe the true person of her... i reali get hurt~ So now i won't tell her anything... unless it is a a normal toking session.. keke~ or any gathering.. if not... we nv tok or even call/sms each other... so now she is not longer in my buddy/best frenz list~ she is juz in my ex classmates list~ and i had one lesser best fren/buddy in my list again~... so... now adaes i reali veri hard to find someone to tok to sometime.. keke~ sometime i dun like to face my family and tell them my problems... they may get worry~ haiZzz... so frenz of mine... if u guys read tis post~ plz... betray mi no more.. okie~ dun betray mi when i reali take u as my best buddy/best frenz.... it reali hurts mi.... and nv ever leave mi when i need u guys most~ thanZzz.................. And now i heading to a happier and wonderful life waiting for mi ahead.... yah~ wish mi all the best.... *My Dearest Angels*

Yah~ i am talking abt ya~...................

Sometimes i reali confuse... being normal and happi will do.. but sometime.. for others... they think they do like tt... they ownself will be happi but pple around him/her dun like the way he/she is... so wad can he/she do???? Sometime i juz like being dote by others.. but other may think i am er xin, childish~ i dun wanna let anyone say mi anymore.. sometime i juz like the feeling of being a small kid and get dote.. but when ar times.. pple keep say... "Serene ar, u r 18 liao.. u should noe wad u muz do and muz not do...." all i can answer is.. "Okie, Sorri" but i juz dunno... maybe being in the youngest in the family... and bein youngest in the group... i will juz behave like a small kid.. but i juz dunno wad should i do.. it's veri diff for mi... i wanna be my ownself... but scare kana say again... Sometime no pple say... but some may juz hate mi in their hearts~ and juz dun wanna say a single thing...

But over all.... i stil have to grow.. i will TRY my best in wadever i can change... change to someone u all dunno.... or change to someone u all r sick off... haiZzzz.. *cried* tt's y i told u.. i wanna leave the group and pei my bf more... as first to change myself... and second dun let u guys sick of my words and action!!! love u guys~ *huggie*

Yesterday i spent my nite at Sentosa... and had some tok....

I feel sad to read her blog... as when she need mi around to give her a hug... i wasn't there for her... And sometime she is infront of mi.. i dun even noe she is sad... she need a hug from mi.... sometime i reali dunno... *I'm sorry*[hugging]

Another SHE hu cares mi alot... she is totally a diff person hu i am toking b4 tis... This SHE is a person hu she will share problems wif mi... she will either tell mi face to face or in net~ so.. when she need someone to be there... i will try to.... But when she need comments... sometime i reali dunno wad to do... as she had seen more things den i do... She is one of the person i respect alot.. i juz treat her as my elder sister~ She is the one hu make mi wanna be stronger and brave.... *hug*

I am 18years old... and i am a young adult now.. but i dun think and act like i am 18.. small things i will cry like hell... veri emontion oso.... when i feel like crying i will juz cry like no ones business.. Why do i act in tis way.... i wan to be brave and strong.. no more cry baby nick for myself... i am a young adult... no more cry baby~ i wan to protect myself... speak for my own right... All i want to be now is strong, brave, no dotes from anyone... and no more cry baby nick for mi... i will act like i am a young adult.... all i need is time... juz time...

I want to pei my family more often... my family is the only feeling tt no one can give mi... i reali feel good to see my sister and mama watch tv together... and i sitting beside them eating potato chips.. the feeling wif frenz r diff.... hope everidae when i reach home.. i have nice dinner waiting for mi~ Now.. wad i wan is a job tt can spend my time.. i will find.. the first place i ask will be BL 7-eleven.... keke~ although the pay is juz a little.. but.... but.... at least i not slacking anymore.. i had my goals.. earn money money for mama to go oversea... at least once in her life time... I wanna be strong to take care of my mama... yah yah~ *please support mi*

I reali said everithing out... feeling much much much better~ yah~... thanz for all the angels and frenz around mi... i love u all... *huggie*

Now is 3.24pm.. juz wake up from a 9 hours sleep... Yesterday is a fun but a tired dae....

Yesterday I had a class gattering... At NTU... we having a bbq over there.. keke~ it's so fresh to see all the classmates again.. and of cuz my dearest teacher, Miss Yip.. She is still the same.. so sweet and nice...... Alot of pple had change.. like Jia Xin, Yu Shan, Thomas, Jolly...etc. We had alot of fun... keke~ reali feel veri good yesterday... See them again.. make mi cheer up alot alot...

After my class gattering... mi and ernest head to Win Arcade and find Andy, Sam, Dhani...etc.... This is the first time i reali try wine... the taste is funny at first~ but when u slowly go try it.. it become better~ We r like TQ den tok tok chat chat.... After tt... Max was like trying on Vestin's bike.. the way he drive is soooo cute... wahahaa reali can make mi laugh... and ernest was ridding too... they reali have alot of fun... den Vestin went to ride Sam around.... yah yah~ see tt sam reali like it alot ba... but wad is tt... i bring the present from Dhani. Ernest, Liz....etc to Wine Acrade and let Sam see.. and she say is NICE... yah yah~ After all tis... we headed to one shop and makan.. oso dunno at where.. as i not the driver... is near bugis... keee... I ordered Mushroom Cheese.. It's nice but when u eat wif curry~ ekk.. not nice liao... stil like the Thailand(i think some of them noe wad i toking abt) de Mushroom Cheese... *yummy*

Yesterday can see tt Sam is reali high! she is reali high! she can't walk straight at all.... haiZzz.. but she is happy la.. so let her be lo.. *wahahahhaaaaa*

Yah! reali had a nice dae yesterday... thanz to all tt r there for mi~

me~ [12.02.05]

me~ *stupid face* lol

ernest and mi... *look at the camera*

mi and sam~ *smile*

darlings and me~ *cOol*

sam and me... *stupid face*

me and billy~

me and billy at Coffee Bean~

Now is 12.58am... at Raymond house... *vestin de frenz* playing mahjong.... so sianz... my and vestin sharing one player.... kEkE~

Todae is a special dae.... as it is my BIRTHDAY~ yah~ i already get a few present..... Although i had my birthday cake one dae b4 my birhday.... but i still enjoy it alot.. keke~ i reali scare noone can celebrate my birthday wif mi... as all need to go out to take ang bao.... haiz... but nvm... keke~~~ i got my first present from my WLNY gang frenz... who are, Dhani, Andy, Ernest, Liz and Adele... keke~ reali like it alot... thanz dude... *muackz* kekeke~ and my mama bought the birthday cake for mi.... my jie gave mi 50 bucks... i need all those money for my new phone.. keke... going to save all and buy my PHONE~ yah yah yah~ and todae i got extra ang bao from my aunti and uncle too..... cuz of my birthday~ wahahahahahaha~ so happi.... even cash kor oso gave my ang bao... *yah yah*

Chicken had came and there goes the monkey.... Hope tis year will be a better year or mi, family and frenz... keke~ those pretty ones will be prettier tis year.. and those yandao one.. will bemore yandao... keke~ yah yah yah~ HUAT AH~ Happi Chinese New Year~ *muackz* hope everione will be healthy and happy.. okie~ jia you~

Frenz oversea... Sam and Adele... miss ya all..reali... i reali do.....

Sam: my beloved sister~ keke.. hu always care mi alot... keke~ thanz for all the care last year~ i am one year older... i will be more mature okie.... but i hope i can always be ur cute sister forever~

Adele: miss ya... come back early.... muackZzz

Everione... HUAT AH~ HUAT AH~

Now is 6.32am.. juz came back from 503... todae reali had a fun time... keke~ when orchard... keke~ den i took vestin bike and steven took michael bike... den andy, ernest, elgin and adele took cab lOoo..... As Sam, Dahni and Liz waitin for us at Orchard liao wor...

We went to Coffee Bean b4 Party World... as we need to wait for room... Den i cried... juz dunno y... Feel tt i been left out.... without no one noes... And... S(a person) was like heck care mi... She had nv treat mi like tt b4... and i dun have the feeling from her b4... den i was so lost and i cried..... When she saw mi cried.. she came and care mi... ask mi y... and she actually can noe wad i am thinking... *smile* reali touch.... juz like mi elder sister~

We went to Party World.... singing all the way... veri fun... keke~ She came over and pei mi again~ *touch* Den... they sing An Jing... i was like...... *feeling like crying* but i nv.. i sing along... Den they sing again... Jay Zhou de song... make mi think of him... and i cried... *sad* i juz dunno y... evertime heard Jay Zhou songs i will think of him.... I juz dunno y... haiz... i noe i already have JJ... but i juz dunno y... tt's y i hate Jay Zhou.. tis is the reason... i used to like Jay Zhou alot... but after mi and him... i stopped listen to Jay Zhou's songs as it will remind mi alot of things...

I dunno... reali dunno wad to do.. *i will try my best to forget everithing*

Later meeting ernest... gonna rest early... keke~ *cheers*

Now is 5.25am... juz reach home not long ago as i can say~

Something suddenly come to my mind... haiz... but i go think carefully... i realli dunno wad actually i am thinking lo.... *haiz*

Some pple onli cherish the thing when u dun have it.... but dun cherish when they have it... But some pple... onli cherish the times when they going to have it... and juz heck after they dun have it.... * i dunno how to name it*

Someone can say... how much he/she like the person when the person is still alive~ but when the person is gone... they can act how sad they r.... even cry daes or nites... but after a few daes.. they can juz forget everithing, act nuthing had happen b4 and contiune their life.... or even have another person in mind......
Dun reali noe wad they r thinking.....

Someone can say.... how much he/she like the person when the person is alive... but no matter the person is gone anot... he/she can still remember her smile.... her things... her interests... and many more... can spend time to care for her family.... haizZzz..

Some pple dun cherish wad they have now...... and cherish when they dun have... y do pple like tt... if there is no "REGRET" tis word... den life will be wonderful.... i dun reali like the word "REGRET"... haiZzz.... *wad abt u?*

yah~ *dun think i need to say where i take de* keke~

Pic taken at Vestin house too... wanna put pic on my msn as i was at his house using com~

This Pic taken at Vestin house.. keke~ boring.... keke~