This pic is a veri good pic to explain how i feel now... Just a lonely rene sitting beside a veri long road which is waitin for her to go on wif her life...

Maybe at this veri min.. i will stop my life going.. but no matter wad i stil have to go on wif wadever i have.. and not stopped there just for a guy who dun worth my time and tears...

At the very min when i need someone to tok to.. no one is there for mi to lend their ears... Had a veri big quarrel wif him, yet i cannot drop a single tear infront of my mama, i have to keep to myself... the only thing i can do is juz to go out and cry out all my tears to someone hu cares mi and listen to my problems and troubles....

Planned to go JE K Box.. yet my good listener is off......... so disappointed.. dun even wanna mention his name.. but frenz there keep remind mi of him... wad can i do??? juz laugh and joke wif them.. wad else can i do??? wanna cry out. yet have to be like a monkey to entertian them... Cuz i have to act like who i am... Just not to let them know too much....

At this mention.. i must be sleeping soundly like wad he is doing now.. but yet~ i can't sleep and think of him... wad can i do... *tears rolling down my cheek* no one to care mi~ frenz ask mi am i okie... wad else can i say other den "nvm, i am okie without him" but when i think twice can i reali can do it? plan for his leave is all blank... wad can i do... i wanna work.. i wanna peck my time so tt i have no time to think...

He kept her pic and say i am a selfish gf.. cuz of her pic he said mi.... how important am i to him.. i am unreasonable.. i agree.... but r u reasonable too...? i keep all to myself juz scare i will quarrel wif u, yet u say i am selfish.... share wif u, say i cannot tahan u keep wanna smoke.. juz wanna share... yet u lie to mi again and again... but i forgive u!!! u r in the wrong y i can forgive u... but when i am in my wrong to be a little xiao qi y dun u give in to mi? maybe i reali not important to u... i am not just like her... THE HER U ALWAYS KEEP IN HEART~ THE HER TT U SAY U HATE HER YET HER PIC IS LIKE GOLD TO U!!!! cuz of her pic can say i am selfish.... if u reali hate her wil u say this? i'm disappointed.... i'm reali disappointed... nuthing can let mi forget everithing....

i got nuthing to say le... i'm tired... i love u yet i hate u... wad am i to u? just a replacement of her??? A me tt u always say i am important den anything yet u can say mi selfish just b'cuz of her one pic?? say i am important and can let mi hungry for 2 to 3 hours??? i reali wonder how important am i to u!!!

I'm sorri i can't read ur heart.. i'm sorri... if i reali can read ur heart, i won't be so painful tearing infront of a moniter tt can nv reply mi anything... I'm so sorri i not HER!! I can't give u wad u wan and ask for.. I am Serene not Her.. u and Her relationship i dunno anything.. I am who i am... I'm still growing, i need time.. okie.. please.. let mi have my life full wif happiness.. U r just like HIM, say mi till i have nuhting good in ur heart... I reali give up everithing.. even my job.. i'm sorri for not being like a gf u wish for... Hope u get her back... or have a nice and better gf den mi.. I'm just rubbish... Please forget mi..

And i noe.. from start till now... ur heart have onli her and not a ger name Serene.... Please let mi go if u dun love mi at all.... I'm Sorri.. for wasting all ur perious time.. Take Care~


The Onli Last Kiss I Going to Give You~ My Dear.. *muackz*
*tearing*