My Dearest Blog.. I'm now in skoool... five days never see my W16N classmates.
At this very moment.. i am totally tired and stress.. just feel like giving up everything..
I'm lost.. yesterday never sleep well... now totally tired.. feel like dying..

Had a very long chat with him on phone and online.....
Said alot... say wad i dun like.. say wad i wan from him.. ended up, he say i am stubborn..
think abt it.. hu is stubborn..? u or me..? or even both.. i am tired....

I had told u everything liao.. but for u.. i am always like that.. if reali i am.. u won't get to smoke now, dun get to buy any more bapes now.. dun get to go out wif ur frens now...
say all is ur hobby and i have to give in.. i ask u, can u because of me leave ur hobby aside just for a while? for the most that 2 to 6 hours per week.... when i am with u.. spend my time with you... accompany u... last time.. u use to be happy when i go ur house.. now no longer..
is it because the longer we been together, u already sianz liao... or wad...

i miss the time.. u hug me... off the lights.. and we chat... chat chat chat.. that is totally so sweet... i miss those times... miss the time that we laugh, play....

i wan to be ur prefect gf... i have to give u.. den can u oso? i can give in let u smoke liao, let u buy for bapes every month.. den still.. wad i get from u... go ur house... alone watch tv till i fall asleep.. wad is the diff even i am at home... at least i at home, u will care to chat wif mi online or on phone... i feel beta that way lo.. i am tired... i am sianz....

I TOTALLY GAVE UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! wad else can i do now? can u tell me? give u wad i wan.. den hu can give me wad i wan.. u dun understand me.. cuz u used to be wif her for that long period of 4 years.. u r use to it.. den hu come and get use to my world???????

i still love u.... love u... but den.. i cannot cuz i love u.. i have to tahan u.... for everyday, every month, every year and every moment...

as to be ur prefect gf.. i have to tahan... have to change my hobby, change my life.... but ask urself.. wad u had really change for me... yah.. u did change.. but i change till.. i dun even have some personal time... wad i did.. all think of u first.. u le...