Ar...back here to update....

Yesterday is my most wonderful sleep...
Hubby at my house watch 9pm show "love at 0'c"
den he sanyang me till fall asleep..
arrr.. i am so happy with it...
Had the most wonderful sleep everrr...

Hubby is dote me.. being with him for 7months plus..
this is really the first time then he sanyang me till i in deep sleep...
dun even feel like waking up!
if today don't have UT test.. i think.. i still at home sleeping soundly..
arrrr... *kisses for him*

update for the pass few days...
22july'o6 saturday
Mama birthday.. yah!!! mama is one year older..
had a wonderful dinner with mama, jiejie, cash kor, ta yi, and my hubby!
yah!!!!!!
and u all guess wad.. me, jiejie and mama enter Jurong Point's Body Shop...
within an hour.. we 4 spend $150+++
although is not that much!! that is actually after 50% discount.. arrr!!
can u imagine if i dun have my frenz help?
it will be like $300+++... arrr.. that is like my one month pay! wah kaoOooo..
but all jie jie pay and i got somethings that i want...!!

23july'o6 sunday
again.. work work work.. nuthing else.. haaa!
after work makan dinner and went home sleep!! hahaaa!

24july'o6 monday
AGAIN! school.. so sianz sia.. haaaaa! boring....
tired.. want entertainment...

arrr.. love my hubby!!
and i promise that i am his from now on!!! arrr....
IN DEEP DEEP LOVE!!!!!

i want to complain everything out..
i am just 19.. how come i have to face so many problems and stress..
ar... i dun wan too... yah i have family there to support me.
but how much can i share with them?
Money, my mama and jie oso have their finance problem..
ar...
it's killing me.. can i dun be so tired.. i had enough of everything..
i wanna cry out NOW!! REALLY!!!!

he can't understand how much i am facing..
i noe he is stress tooo but got more den me?
it's since 2 years i nv get a single cent from my mama..
and i have no break at all.. 1 week 7 days..
when is the day i can really out with hubby or frenz to enjoy!

u think i wanna quarrel? i just cannot contorl everything..
it's totally killing me.. i had enough of everything...
care me more please.. i need care and support now..
NOT QUARREL!! okie.. u think i wan oso??
i dun wan.. mood swing, u think i can contorl.. how much more u wan me to change..
always wan me to change wad about u? i am myself.. can stop forcing me oso..
i need ur care.. not forcing and call me to change everything..
arrr.... i am damn stress.. stress den my mama and jie jie..

want me to think of u.. den u le? can think of me also? i had enough!! i am tired.. please kill me now den...
arrr.. i dunno wad the fuck now.. i need someone to console me..

*crying now*

i had enough! please kindly kill me now now now NOW!!!!!

I HAD ENOUGH!! i am just 19 y y stress seems like i am 29...

nuthing special for me this weekend AGAIN!!!!!

work work work, wait for him after work and get home wad else?
arrrr.. boring life.. i want someone to entertain me now!!
nuthing to share with him.. maybe everyday meet..
things will get bored and nuthing to share..
im hungry RITE NOW!! and *fucking jie is eating infront of me..

arrr.. it's killing me. i wanna be slim..
he *dun seems love me like before..
he dunno wad i wan now anymore...
arrrrrrr.... im tired.. broke down!!!
think.. we really need sometime to stay away.. to make each of us misses each other..
so tt when we meet up! we have things to tok...

I NEED A NEW PART TIME JOB!!!
I'M RUNNING OUT OF MONEY! left 4 bucks with me NOW!!
ar... arrrr........................
nuthing seems interesting in my life now..
i use to have nuthing to tok to my mum!! but now!! i am closer *den her den him!!
arrr... wad happen to me? i need someone to tok to now!!....

SMOKE!!!! i want to smoke now and de-stress ar..
he smoke, i hurt!! so wad if i smoke too? will he be happy?
arrr.. i dunno wad the *fuck now.. mood is damn down now.. i wan to go out!!!!!

FUCK OFF LIFE !!!!!

*i really hope all the cancel is wad i dun need.. ar...!!

Yah!! back to update..
If guys notice.. i change my blog skin once again! hahaa!
nice?
hahaaa~ sianz sia..

Yesterday is our dearest Mira birthday.. and u guys noe wad
Huiting came down and find us and oso bought Mira birthday cake..
therefore we had a small celebration! hahaa! FUN!
pics i had alot... but i dun think i going to upload ALL!!!!













mira and her birthday cake.. NICE! looks yummy.. but fatty... but worst i dun like chocolate cake.. haaaa! anyway happy belated birthday girll!!!!












Tis is the ger gang of W16N!! yah!! cheers...










This is how HeJing look when she is tired and blur!! hahaa!
no la... this is actually taken by me when suddenly she turn to me and i just take.. hahaa! see.. how blur she look!! credis to HeJing and Me!!!!










arrr... this is the guy gang.. hahaa!! they always dun with gers de la.. haaa! bleahzz.. but they r good guys!! just hope they can stop bully us, girls.. haaaa~















This are all the aunties that get us cake.. thank you aunties.. muackz..
credits to u all oso.. *yah**yah*

hope mira had a wonderful birthday yesterday! although not a very nice big party! just a little thing for her... hahaaa!!! *muackz*

here is the present i done for her.. just a small token.. nuthing big and special!!














HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL!! BEST WISHES!!!! *MUACKZ*

Arr.. Back from outlet..
waiting for hubby to off duty le.. cuz super meeting sia..
KNS!!!!

now at home.. hubby say he is coming over to pei me.
he off tomolo.. wooo!! yah yah yah!! hubby sanyang me into deep sleep!
love him hugging me tight in my dreams.. woo!!

Arrrrr....
although i always seems happy! but i do have sad times...
i dun like to see him smoke..!!
it hurts me totally..
when i noe he is smoking or let me see.. i really wanna stand far from him and hate him in my heart.... but i noe i must be strong! ar.. but strong can strong how long? ar.....
I really dun like the feeling... really hope he understand my stand.....
I wan him to be healthy! maybe i am selfish! but tis carry on will still quarrel.
I can tahan/strong for how long.. hubby.. not forever!!!

arrr.. it's killing me.. i love u dote me, treat me good..
but hubby. when the moment u smoke.. can think of me? and stop urself from smoking?
CAN U? i think of u dote me and sanyang me.. i tell myself to be strong, not to angry or drop any tears.. BUT can u do the same...? ar...... i am tired..!!!!

I wan rest!! stop asking me y i nv find u!! IM TIRED!!! ar.. it's killing me....
dun ask me y my face black black!! IM TIRED!!!!! TOTALLY TIRED!!
from start till now.. i dun even have a day that is more than 8 hours for me to sleep and rest! dun say enjoy! if i have time to enjoy, i will choose to sleep den..!!!!!

Arrr.. gonna stop here..
my english sucks.. my everything sucks.. LIFE OSO!!! hope hubby can light up every dark areas for me..! muackz..!!

he is my only angel.. i love him! muackz..
he is my everything.. no him.. no me.. but when he smoke.. he is NOTHING!!!!

Im now in school.. having 6P...
Arrr... today our faci is a ANG MO!! ar...
he talk is damn funny!!!..
wahahahaaaa... *lol*



i spend sometime and edited one pic.. haa!
nice nice nice??
all credits to xiaoxian..
she teach me how to.. haha! muackz...

Arrr.. just now take a nap in class.. damn tired.. hope team mates understand.
hai!! sorry pammie, hejing, sha and par.. leave u all and i slept..
Opppsss.. really sorry! feeling bad now.. ar..
anyway today's problem is boring.. ahhaa! ar...
miss hubby now and wanna go out with him tomolo..
muackz. love being with him sia. hahaa!
he is my everything from now on!! love him!!

going do my things and dismiss school liao wor. muackz!!!!

Back in school now, just saw hubby's sms feeling so warm..
muackz...

I'm very touch yesterday!
Mira and Nadiyah come and support me at KBox..
So touched ladys.. muackz.. kisses for ya guys!
Sorry no time to accompany ya guys..
really SORRY!!!

again, ytd had a quarrel with hubby...
really hurt me... i can't stop someone caring me..
but i just wanna be true to u! tell u all the true..
but i dunno u got hurt! muackz.
*sanyang only for ya*

Work for sat and sun.. no shopping or any entertainment for my weekends.. ar..
it's killing me.. can i have a rich family, boyfriend and people who can pay for me?
im really broke... ar.. the tiredness is killing me every minutes and seconds.. ar...

I need more care and concern.. hubby, listen tt??
muackz... *hug*

back to work.. maybe update another one later! see how thing goes..
btw today faci sucks.. he talk and read.. I DUN UNDERSTAND..
hope it's only for this week.. not next or wad.. hahaaaa~

*end of update*

Now in school.. spare some time to blog..
ar.. today problem is so diff sia.. haha~

ar.. boring sia..
i wan go shopping and buy new bags, jeans, skirts and blah blah blah..
i want to SHOP MORE MORE!!!
i wan go shopping....

school is so sianz..
today we only have 3 groups. therefore is like..
i got the feeling it's going to end fast!
WoooOooo...

Arrr... missing hubby... muackz..
gonna sms hubby after this.. muackz!

Arr... Please Ignore the post b4 this..
I shouldn't had give in and say sorry!!
it's won't help!!

Cuz it's all MY OWN PERSONAL PROBLEM!!
not his..
from now on my prob and his own prob is diff liao!
ar.. dunno wad fcuk now la..
I noe i wrong, i said sorry in the first place.
He say back me and said "MY OWN PERSONAL PROB"
tell me.. which fcuking u won't get angry?
den i scold him fucker..
and he dun get wad i mean..
FINE DEN!
I NEED TO SLEEP.. TOMOLO GOT SKOOL!
cuz of u, i pon and pon.. not going to do tt tomolo..

arr.. FROM NOW ON ALL IS MY OWN PERSONAL PROBLEM!
dun ever care me anymore.. cuz all is my PERSONAL PROBLEM!!

ALL IS MY OWN PERSONAL PROBLEM!!!

be in my shoe and u will understand how fcuking tulan i am NOW!!

I'm back here to update..

Today.. a cool day once again! Hubby's off day..
Went SHOPPING!! yah yah yah!!
Tomolo Angel's Birthday.. Bought her a piggy soft toy.. Soo cool..
can i dun give it to her?
ar..
Hubby bought me a NEW T-SHIRT!! Wahhh!!..
Really touch and happy!
Thank you hubby! muackz... muackz...!!
Really like it alot u noe.. i just love it!!!
Just now had a little misunderstanding from hubby!
he say i always jealous and let him like no friends..
I'm not.. i just sianz..
maybe jealous cuz the ger is PRETTY?!!
ar.. wadever!!
i dun have trust in myself. cuz i'm NOT PRETTY!!
but i really not because of that!!
sometime just hope u can sanyang me and notice that i am there with you..
Your words is so hurt just now.. and made me no mood..
Can't u say better words like.. rene, u jealous?
dun worry i just love you! isn't this sound better?
maybe u dun understand ba....

You noe that guy is *beep* me and u say things like u r jealous..
but how i reply u? I said, in my heart that is always u only!
Is this better then i saying. can't i have freedom making frenz around?
what there to jealous about? Hubby, u get wad i mean..

Sorry for attitude just now..
But i really angry and hurt that u always use those words that i dun like..
Just use something nice, isn't it beta outcome?
ar...
i dunno wad to say!!
just feeling bad now..
just called u and u sounded dun care.. ar..!!! fcuk!! fcuk!!
Sorry for the attitude but hope u think and i just love u!!
I jealous cuz i love u! if one day i no longer worry den how sia..

Overall.. enjoy my day with hubby!!
i just love him being with me..!! muackz.. just for him and no one else..!!

雄雄,我真的真的好爱你!!
要记得我们的约定...
我说过，会在这里陪你到永远...

i wanna let you know, I just love you from 10.12.05 till ever~

At this moment of time, I'm totally tired..

Seriously, until now i dunno wad i actually wan and aim in my life..
Everyday, early in the morning... Looking forward to end skool..
When ended skool, looking forward to reach home or meet hubby..
Night time, looking forward to sleep and hope tomolo is saturday..
What else sia.. =(

Start of the month, hope can faster get my pay on 5th..
Get pay looking forward to hubby's off day and went shopping..
After that look forward to 10th.. OUR ANN!!!
Every week just looking forward to hubby's off day and go out together..
Spend our time together.. muackz...
End of the month.. The cycle goes back again!!...

So this is wad i looking forward for this pass 3 months...
Nuthing special in my life other then those hubby's give me suprise..
muackz..
Studying is sucks in my life now.. i need money.. NOW!!!
i want ton and tons of money!! arr...
Just hope this 3 years faster pass and i can work..
After that marry my hubby liao...

I dun wan any stress.. i am stress enough..
Just want a boyfriend to share all my happiness.. muackz..
i love hubby.. yah yah yah yah!!!!!!

Thousand and million of kisses only for hubby...
missing him now and den..

hubby, have u been missing all while?

Arrr.. In school now.. haha.
borning sia. come back from my presentation and toilet break.
hahaaaaa~
now is blackie group presentation..
today my lunch/breakfast is a very light one. very hungry now sia. haha
but hu will cares? bleahz..
waiting for hubby to off duty den can makan dinner with him

hubby bought new DVD haha..
this week end, i have things to do liao..
watching dvd with hubby is soo cool and nice.
yummy... love accompany him..
but he dun seems to like it.. *DOH*

muackz.. love hubby ..
today, he jing and pammie nv come skool sia.. sianz. kaO...
sianz... lucky got my darling mei mei.. muack to her too..

ar.. stop for a while and tok to classmates.. haha
tomolo im late for bitch lesson again..
not just me.. is ALOT!!
we meet up for lunch.. WOOOO!!!
yahh!! yummy...

missing hubby, going to off skool liao...
haha! tired sia. i need to sleep.!!!!

Hubby, Happy 7th Month Ann!!!!!!

Together me and hubby is 7 month already.
muackz.. kisses for him..
Hope me and him will always be happy and nice..
Be mature and nice..
dote by him..


but at times
i hate him smoking..
it brings my mood down..
It really does..
I dunno how long am i gonna wait..
i am so sianz and tired of keeping all my unhappiness in me..
i need to say al it out..
ar.. how long am i gonna wait?

at times...
wan him to keep from me...
but when i noe he keep from me..
i feels that he gonna lie me..
but when he tell me...
i feel bad when he wants to smoke..
aRRhhhh!!..
i dunno how to contorl myself too.. FEEL BAD!!!
if he really can quit and dun touch anymore den it's really good enough for him..

SMOKE OR ME?
hubby i love u.. but can b'cuz of me dun smoke at times?
PLEASE!!!!!! i realli feel bad.. U UNDERSTAND!?
like i wanna learn bike... e feeling u got too...
i wanna be happy!!!
I want hubby and me be nice husband and wife.. please..
i wanna go out with friends...
where u guys!?

Since now is still before 12am...
I gonna..

Wish my fren...
KWEE MEI!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
to mei:
sorry that i actually forgotten ur birthday...
realli sorry about tt.. maybe i just too stress last week end..
sometime troubling me.. so i may forgot..
but just hope u dun mind..
but i just wish u will cherish my wishes.. haha!
muackz.. I LOVE YOU!!

anyway.. just come back from work and shopping with hubby..
yah!! bought new tons and night suit. haha!!
gonna return hubby money when i got back my cash!!
arrr.. i dun have a single cent with me now.. i'm broke..!!!

i wanna buy alot alot of things lo...
reali alot alot..
arr... haha!! muackz..
im broke.. i need a millionair to feed me.. haaa~
but my hubby not one.. but his care is enough for me..

muackz..
tomolo gonna work for damn 9 hours.. killing me ar.. i dun wan!!
FCUK OFF AR!!!!
hahaaaaa~ lucky got hubby there to accompany me.
kisses only for him!!!!!

Arr.. back from skool and dinner with hubby..
i am all alone..
no point waiting like tt liao..
i need some entertainment to light up my life..
he dun seems to need me anymore..

Im the one keep spending my time waiting and waiting
he dun sense any kan jong on me..
arrr...
im alone...
im just like his fren hu just acc him and wait for him..
i need ur attention.. OKIE!
no just acc u makan and go home like tt..
Aarr.. fcuk it..
I gonna find my life from now on..
Frenz.. JIO ME OUT PLEASE!!!!!

but..
i just love him with all i have..
tis will never change till the end of my life..

Hey guys.. Sorry for late update again..
Arr... i pon school on both monday and tuesday...
Arrr... a 4 days break.. haa!
Yesterday and today.. LATE LIKE FCUK!!!
haha..

But seriously, who will caresss...
just wanna pei hubby and nuthing else..
Got my pay.. DAMN FCUKING LITTLE!!
hubby going to feed me???

muackz. love my hubby lots lots lots!!!
wanna get cash and shop till i drop ar...
Now hungry liao wor...
later going to makan...

MAKAN!!!
miss hubby! muackz..

Arrr.... i am okie with him now..
BUT!!! I dunno what to do now..
Distance is always there...

Don't affect by anyone.. Correct!!!
Thank you TEEN for that! and hubby for telling me~
Maybe i dun trust him, ended up.. I listen to people..
They maybe the one who trying to hurt we two..
Aarrr... Sorry to... Xiong..
U r my bf, yet i dun trust u and trust them..

Sorry!!! I think back, im sorry~
Just make me trust u mah...
everything share can??
I need to understand you, not guess you!!!

Whatever it is! A new start for me and him again!!!!!!!
TRUST!!!

也许他不在爱我，但只要是朋友就好了！
心里不在烦，不要在想以前。
我拿得起，放的下。

我想对所有朋友说；对不起。

几个星期，几个月，几年...
最后，你会痊愈。
而我，依然会在这里守护。
我说过，会在这里陪你到永远...
我们的约定好伤心。。。

i skip school again,
my result.. i dun care anymore..
i am tired now..
need some rest,
frens around all not free..

ate 15 panadol and sleep for fucking 2 hours pluz..
now stomach pain...
panadol is to stop pain, yet it make me painful..
Ar....
I want to sleep, but i can't get to sleep..
Anyone can pei me out?
I need FRIENDS NOW!!

tried, the thing is in my room..
throw or keep? give or not go give?
so wad even i give?
means nuthing for both of us...
cut myself, PAIN!! BLOOD...
i dunno wad to do now.. ALONE!!!!

I want to work.. i need money NOW!!!
not a single cent on me...
im broke, ALL B'CUZ OF HIM!!!
IM SO STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!
I HATE MYSELF TOOOO!!!
tot he really will feed me, but haha!!!
let pple laugh ONLY!!!
IM A BIG JOKE FOR CMT FROM NOW ON!!!

she is laughing away, he is enjoying away,
he loves her, he heart pain when she some with wedding card
this means wad??
ar.... STOP!! not gonna think.. im just a toy for him.. im so stupid..
IM SO STUPID!!!!!!

Back to update again!!!
Once again. i am lost....

Ur sorry means another lie which i nv guess wrong,

She invite u to her wedding, wad u told me?
Shack to see her wedding card, dun dare to face her?
Stil love her? DUN TELL ME NO!!!!
how long have u lie me..? i all being kept
Ur ex come for Lunch, say onli her one is deli no matter wadever she eat...
BUT her fren oso makan noodle/rice he onli pay for deli.
wad she drink, u say those package drink
but wad u give is juices
SAY! "not enough drink tell me, i get more for u.."
Wad is all tt?

I dunno when i had ever lie u, i dunno...
all i know is i never..
i dunno why u wanna like tt....

SMOKE, GAME, BAPE!! ALL I GIVE U!!
WAD DID I GET??
LIE FROM U????

I change for u so many!! YET ALL U CHANGE FOR ME IS TELLING ME LIE!!!
and worst, u dun feel i change.. FINE!!!!!

Not that i dun love u, is all those make mi strong to be single once again!
Not that i dun take tis relationship serious or care,
all ur lie make mi heck care..
Dun act nuthing infront of me, say i girl attitude
HERE I TELL U!!
I AM A ATTITUDE GER!!!
u r the one hu change me till like tt..
dun teach me how am i should be..
i should be the one hu tell u tt...

U CONTINUE LYING!!! TRY!!!
u r worst den me.. dun say me i'm not good.
u r totally worst den me.. look into ur mirror..
U R THE ONE HU MAKE MI STRONG TO BE LIKE TT!!!

SAY I WILL REGRET!! SORRY!! ALL THOSE NV MAKE ME REGRET!!!
CUZ I HAD GIVEN U ENOUGH CHANCES!!!!
DUN SAY DUN HAVE!!!!!