Now thinking back... im sooo stupid..

from the start till the end..
im the third party~
even when we are together..

hw can he so easily forget me and get back to her..
if realli so..
how can it be so easy
im just like a fool..

i hate him for lying..
but i hate myself even more for believe and ended up..
so hurt and tired..
doing so much for nuthing..
and seeing them stay together and smile.. =(

am i an idiot or wad?
wad am i? i dunno.. i miss him badly..
i love him.. i dunno why~
why is he so deep in my heart? WHY!?

does he ever miss me.?
does he?
why am i sooo stupid?
they are deeply in love~...
hurt hurt hurt~

i wanna cry again can i?
wanna hug him and hold him tight to cry again~
i wan to cry out now.. NOW!!!
but... he wont even noe if i does..!!

-emo renee logging off with tears in her heart for onli "HIM"