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Sunday, September 30, 2007
Im Having Fever, Flu and Headache
at this very moment when im blogging..
No One cares about me..
I feel like tearing..
All Along am i so lonely?
why they are not here when i need them sooo..
or i can say.. just "HIM"
see him again.. make my heart pain..
smile from me to him..
hurts inside..
i talked to him..
but it seems like i nobody to him
no reply..
does he really need to do this?
does he?
realli no frenz to be?
nvm...
wad over is over.. just that he doesnt noe..
there is someone here always wish to on his light for him..
but he dun choose me to do sooo....
nvm..
I LOVE MYSELF, FAMILY AND FRENZZZ!!
hope he is always fine and happy~
[[I.Think.I.Still.Cant.Get.Over.YOU]]
Friday, September 28, 2007
--laomao--
renee is back again~
this time.. i dunno wad to say
maybe realli.. dunno wad..
can ii say
single is the BEST?
can ii say IS NOT?
i dunno oso..
single is fan
attached is fan too..
why is like tt?
okie okie..
starting work on monday!
i love my fun and laughter!!
haiiii
i love the world!!
bibi,
seriously now
i have nuthing to say
maybe i choose to be single ma
cuz i dunno u much yet!
sorry... lolx..
hope frenz are still there
and u are always my bibi!
we always lovely in audi wor..
lolx.. x33
laomao, iissey, -XR-, darlings, jazz, boi, hua
and
ALOT MORE!!!
i will miss u all when im not at bedok..
will come back when i have time
okie?
muackxx..
i miss the joke and fun with u all.
miss me okie..
muackxx!!! -emo renee logging off.. [[I.Think.I.Still.Cant.Get.Over.You]]
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Friends Forever?
Lameshyt!!
some friend can be forever!!
but some friend can never be..
tt's fate ba as i can say! T_T
emo now once again~
maybe im just too tired..
sleepless for 2 days..
i miss my bed!
i nv sleep just pei-ing her..
ended up get PS..
who oso will dulan..
but who call me being soo good.
hai..
okie la.
moodless for anything now..
bibi oso dun care me..
nbnbnbnbnbnb
back when i have the mood ba~
bb my blog..
i love my blog.
cuz it's always here for me..
mauckxx..
i miss bibi..(:
x33
-emo renee logging off with moodless mood~
Sunday, September 23, 2007
can i say im tearing?
can i say im not..
watery eyes i had..
but not a single drop came off..
i just being straight forward
hope u dun mind..
hope our fren-ship are still there
thank you for all the care and concern
tt i can feel..
but those is wad i really wan in the past~
i noe u r trying to get me back..
but..
sometimes..
thing's gone means gone~
I noe u trying alot of ways to gain back
but!!!
i dunno how to accept it...
maybe i need more times for myself..
cuz i can realli enjoy myself now~
im sorry my dearest xiong..
i love you~
as a deeply fren of mine..
i dunno wad will the future be..
but i clearly understand
wad i wan it now~
buds' 1314~
-emo renee logging with watery eyes
i can shout it LOUD
"HE" is out of my world..
as in my love world..
lolx.
But we are still frenz and buddy ar..
rite? Bb?
lolx..
hope we can be back like last time
and YAH!!
His gift still at iissey house..
kao kao kao!!
dun wan the gift liao.. sian sian sian!
hahahahhahahahhahaaha!!
okie okie.. damn
tired
u
noe?
haiss..
i
need
some
sleep
la
wah
kao
lolx..
laomao..
hahaahhahahah!
im just fucking
tired
ba~
i miss bibi..(:
-emo renee logging off chatting with bibi online.. the big fat hongster~
Friday, September 21, 2007
I am writing to say that my huge passion for you
is all over. In fact, my total boredom for you
grows daily! The more i think of you, the more
you irritate me. I'm sorry to say that. I don't know why
i felt this way. Don't know why i have the urge to
confess to you. I never really wanted to
tell you that i wanted to be with you.
It's really impossible for me to say that
i wanted very much to spent me life with you.
Your stupid and irritating face mades me vomit.
Being with you makes me overwheming with
misery and gloom. I will never feel any
happiness. From the bottom of my heart, i would say,
i know this is cruel but it's the fact.
I really do mean it. I desperately hope
that you will accept it kindly instead of saying
you love me always! You really are
lacking any resemblane to
the mavellous person i first knew.
Baby, promise that you'll be happy, alright ?
not in mood~
moodless~
no words in mind..
it's all blank~
emo.. ..
emo renee is being emo again..
duno y..
just being lost..
no updates~
-emo renee logging off with a little smile this time~
back for some updates again..
emo renee still emo-ing
got my job
as a
M1 assistance
WOOooo!!!
start work on 1st Oct
yah yah yah
o9.ooam at JE
=)
Finally someone
full up my life..
xiong, bibi, darlings, laomao and kpkp!
they are the one hu full my life
for now..
thank you people..
i love u guys! muackxx!
bibi, my audi couple..
sweet of him..
but dun realli noe him well.. ooppss..
lolx.. keai de ta wor..
xiong, ex..
caring like no other pple did.
muackx.. tytytyty!!
darling,
pei me 24/7
listen to my problem..
share with her my tears..
and etc..
darling, i love you..
laomao,
stupid pple cheer up my day with
alot of
---LAOMAO---
lolx.. ai ni wor..
kpkp,
someone hu dote me like a
younger sistax!
feel being love and protected..
not tt love ar..
is bro and sis love..
laomao dun misunderstand.. lolx.
I LOVE YOU ALL!! x33
i miss bb as per normal..
but frenz evaa!! ^^v
take carex..
x33
-emo rene logging off with a smile.. missing all her loves~ x33
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
now tearing away
thinking the words he said..
hate myself for being stupid
maybe like wad he did
i need to MIA also
but i miss him..
i have no one can reall listen my problems.
my feelings..
Ya..
i have to go on with my life
no stopping here just for uii
no men worth my tears
but why am i tearing so much
for just a man?
u dun no
therefore
me too...
i dunno...
message for iissey:
bro~
i get ur testi meanin..
i noe he is good..
but feeling is not there..
he treat me 10 times better b4
but u should noe..
when a guy is wooing..
things is like fairy tales..
but when come back to
reality..
he is back the same old him..
his family..
which i dun realli like..
aiya
i just love one and onli one NOW
dun ask me who.
cuz
u
noe
it.
missing him T_T
-emo renee logging off with tears in her eyes..
-so that she cant see wad's on her tag~
Tuesday, September 18, 2007
now i m here, venting on e key board, hating myself y i cant b stronger, to hold back my tears, to not remember everyting single word u said to mi. i always tot i had been thru enuff, n u r my greatest gift admist my setbacks. indeed u r, but u bestow mi the greatest pain as well... much more den any physical pain i've known of. i feel lyk i m bleeding inside. i din noe our love was so vulnerable, so unworthy of you even trying.
if i ever have a choice of powers i'll choose to read ur mind?? from then...i knew u've shut urself up from mi.cuz up till today, i still do not fathom u at all. teach mi how u let mi go, teach mi how u make it looks so easy, when u said ur love for mi = Nothing , i believed it all.thanks fer fabricating sumting so beautiful fer mi, n maybe i was expecting too much out of dis.
My air......i really cant breathe now, from all tat pain. e flashbacks in my mind running endlessly. just imagining waking up without u make sleeping so meaningless, tinking of the times we laughed our hearts out, makes mi wonder if i could ever smile again. nobody can complete my sentences again
They say... time will heal my pain, time will take it all away. but i really don't want to.cuz my memories, our memories.... nobody can take it away from us.tats all tat's left of us...isn't it....? [[my.eyes.so.filled.with.tears.I.CAN.NO.LONGER.SEE]] [[my.heart.so.filled.with.pain.I.CAN.NO.LONGER.FEEL]] can u teach me how u forgot me? can u?
Now thinking back... im sooo stupid..
from the start till the end..
im the third party~
even when we are together..
hw can he so easily forget me and get back to her..
if realli so..
how can it be so easy
im just like a fool..
i hate him for lying..
but i hate myself even more for believe and ended up..
so hurt and tired..
doing so much for nuthing..
and seeing them stay together and smile.. =(
am i an idiot or wad?
wad am i? i dunno.. i miss him badly..
i love him.. i dunno why~
why is he so deep in my heart? WHY!?
does he ever miss me.?
does he?
why am i sooo stupid?
they are deeply in love~...
hurt hurt hurt~
i wanna cry again can i?
wanna hug him and hold him tight to cry again~
i wan to cry out now.. NOW!!!
but... he wont even noe if i does..!!
-emo renee logging off with tears in her heart for onli "HIM"
Back To Blog What I Had Done Pass Few Days.. .. ..
- Outing on Saturday~
*sorry pic will update really soon cuz not home for a few days*
a group of abt 20+ pple out in town~
tok cock, hang around.. eat and drink..~
Fun to get close with Joey and Ferl..
*muackx ladies*
and had fun with laomao and darling oso.. x33
Had our Very first Donut Factory de Donut..
love.. fall in love with it.. yummy ar.. x33
^^v
This Few Days
not onli go out with bedok gang~
and oso meet up with Xiong(ex) and catch up with him..
=) he is still the gentlmen i use to noe.. lolx..
*thank you for all the meals*
lolx.. sorry to let u spend alot..
but today's donut hope u still like it and my effort ar..
A poor him to take 44 stops station just to pei me
from BoonLay travel to Bedok and back again.. *for 2 days =X*lolx.
lolx.. lolx..
tomolo he gonna start work.. too bad. haha~ have to work le..
no time pei me fool around liao wor.. lolx..
this week's event..
Darling's Birthday~
hahahahahaha.. a small amount of money being save to buy her
at least a Birthday Cake.. cuz i totally broke.. hahaha~
muackx darling.. =)
Funny Stuff
Jim kana have a funny shy done by him..
cuz i keep calling him darling.. lolxx..~ lolx..
no comments abt this..
den darlin and gang keep saying me again hahaa..
Sad Stuff..
Suddenly from no where i miss "HIM" again...
cuz i have no news from him..
i will think how is he getting alot with "HER"
make me worry.. but i can do nuthing..
no smses from "HIM"
hope he is just well enough la..
Qnes for myself this few days..
Q1: Must i wait for him this 2 years?
Q2: What if better one is just around me?
Q3: Does he still have feelings for me?
Q4: Does he and she will last long?
Q5: Are we at least still frenx?
Q6: Does he still remember who i am and how i look like?
Q7: Does he noe there is someone here waitin and caring him?
Q8: Does he noe i love him still?
Q9: Does my face come across his mind once?
Q10: Can i love u once again?
there are lots more to go on.. but i think this blog is not gonna end..
so i choose 10 out of all..! i miss him deeply.
but like wad i said..
seeing him happy is more important den anything else..
hope he will look for me when he realli down and need help..
cuz im still a fren of his.. a fren of his..
YAH!!!! A FREN!!! JUST A FREN!!!!! =(
i jealous.. just jealous..
aiya... nvm....
-emo renee logging off with a feeling of blankes..
-cuz her questions will nv had an answer...
Monday, September 17, 2007
I dunno wad to say now..
i love the world.. i love everyone..
but i getting to hate myself..
emo renee hate renee..
x/33
i realli getting to hate myself alot alot alot..
how can i love myself back again?
i dunno wad i wan...
im already not myself now..
i breaking down beri beri soon~
realli very soon...
fren around... stop givin me more headache plzz..
i wanna clear my mind can??
I wanna love back myself like last time can?
CAN I??
x/33
-emo renee logging off with a fake her..
-fark smiles..
-fark faces and laughters~
-IM TOTALLY FARK!!!!!!!!!!!
.::你我"她"::.
半夜醒来的时候
你离她远走
四方屋里 只剩孤寂
电话声响起
你在那里 诉说委曲
关于她和你
我在这里 一如往昔
说什么都没意义
我和你和她之间的故事
该怎么解释
我爱你 你却爱她
她又爱着谁
我和你和她之间的故事
该怎么结束
我痛苦 你清楚
她比我幸福 比我幸福
我和你和她之间的故事
该怎么解释
我爱你 你却爱她
她又爱着谁
我和你和她之间的故事
该怎么结束
我痛苦 你清楚
她比我幸福 比我幸福
你爱上一个不爱你的她
该不该等待
我爱上一个不爱我的你
算不算悲哀
我和你和她之间的故事
该怎么解释
我爱你 你却爱她
她又爱着谁
我和你和她之间的故事
该怎么结束
我痛苦 你清楚
她比我幸福 比我幸福 [[he.noe.i.love.him.yet.he.love.her]] [[how.lucky.is.she.to.being.love.by.him]] [[i.can.just.wait.but.nothing.else]]
Saturday, September 15, 2007
back~
back once again~
getting myself a new layout very soon..
when the layout is out..
means i gonna change my http address too.
lolxx..
cuz.. i dunno.. this is where i throw out my happiness and unhappiness..
something dun wish to affect anyone...
so better stay this address from "HIM"
hahahaha okie..
LAOMAO is looking and readin my post now.. gonna get back soon!
=)
x33
misses onli for....
emo renee logging off with smile on face but hurts inside.. x/33
Friday, September 14, 2007
~他和她的故事~ it seems so nice.. just like fairy tales.. but for me.. is like a ghost story.. can i dun read it.. can i dun continue it.. can i just throw their 故事 away from me? far far away.. and never get close back to me.. i dun wanna noe wad happen between them cuz i dun wanna see their happiness and smiles. cuz it make me realli tears like MAD.. I love him.. yet he love her.. and there is how they contiune their fairy tales story.. A story that make me jealous just like Fairy Tales.. [[他和她的故事]] [[DeepInMyHeart.ILoveYou.ButYouHaveAHer.BesideYouContiune.UrStoryWith]]
how i wish...
i was a pebble in the roads..
just so that i can rather take physical pain...
how i wish...
i was a lifeless weed in the sea..
just so that i can wash away all my problems..
how i wish...
i was a leaf that flows with the wind..
just so that i feel comfortable with everything..
just so that i feel free and just float with everything..
too many things happening at the same time..
i think... i cant take it anymore..
i think... i reached my limits of limits..
i think... i really cannot take it le..
wad happened already happen..
i can't say.. or i can't do anything abt it..
i m destined to be a unlucky girl'..
ill fated..
unlucky piece of shit..
can i smile once again infront of you..
A real smile but not a fark one~ T_T
if u love someone,
set them free.
if they return to u,
it was meant to be.
if they don't,
their love was never yours to begin with ..
a great love is when you shed tears and still cares for him & still longs for him,
he begins to love another and
yet you still smile and say " I'm happy for you " (:
the worst thing in the world is seeing the one you love with the one they love.
you always loves the one who leaves you and leaves the one who loves you
loving is not how you forget but how you forgive,
not how you listen but how you understand,
not what you see but how you feel and not how you let go but how you hold on.
a guy and a girl can be just friends ,
but at one point or another ,
one of them will fall for the other ,
maybe temperery ,
maybe at wrong time ,
maybe too late ,
maybe .. just maybe .. forever .. x33
Yah Back blogging at this timing again~
A timing tt i miss him most~..
No updates from HIM and HER..
maybe they are really happy!..
wish to see them in that status oso.. =)
tt's wad frenz are for... .. .. .. .
past post.. i said he is normal too me..
but today things turn bad again~..
hai.. y must he like tt~?
is he happier in this way~?
hai.. gonna change my blog layout really soon when i have
tons of time at home ba..
cuz i feel my layout is sooo sian liaOoo.. hahaa~
do myself a new layout...
wooo...
okie.. i am so sian now.. damn sian.. feel like sleeping.
but no bed, no place hai..
y am i ended up in this state..
cannot blame him, cannot blame my family..
all i have to blame is fuucking myself..
T_T
I DAMN FUCKKING IRRTATING LAH!!!!!
Arrr.. okie okie. nvm~
i miss my frenz, buddies and family.. soo much now..
whenever im sooo LONELY!!!
Arrrr... .... ..... ........ ...
okie okie..
im damn emo now..
EMO FREAK RENEE!!!
-emo renee is damn emo now till she wanna kill herself..
broken hearts will be come back in a piece again~..
im soo bad..
Thursday, September 13, 2007
Just Had A Post MINUTES AGO!!!!!
but here im back blogging again..
Now I Know Who She Is..
I read her blog.. and his blog..
how lovely are they..
make me jealous make me sad..
He tear for her..
He tear for her on o4.o9
A day i nv going to forgett..
but im happy he can get back her again..
maybe by fate they are meant to be together..
Im just a Passerby.. ^^
Hope SHE cherish him like no bloody kpo..
Hope SHE love her like MOTHERS' love..
Hope He is Her everything..
Happy seeing ur love ones happy..
therefore im happy..
x333
wish to hug u last time and cry once again~..
i miss u badly but im not the one u missin now..
promise dun hurt her.. cherish her too..
since she is back here once again..
take carex my bb and bb's ger..
-emo renee logging off with tears once again knowing he belongs to her again~
x/33 broken hearts can nv get back in a piece..
Everything is so Updated Now..
Really Updated..
Updated..
He read my blog.. T_T
He noes everything..
but now he treat me normal.
*happy*
just like what we use to be..
he need help from me..
he smsed me..
confused..
is he attached?? x/33
i dunno.. confuse.
seems like SHE really love HIM
her tag, her reply..
Hope she really do and cherish him..
make him dun sad like wad i regret..
soon he will be attached..
im damn confused..
fren around know he has a blog..
but not me..
they say im stupid..
but i can say.. YAH I AM!!
tt's y im still here waitin for him to pull me back
but........ waitin is no point..
now i wait till i see someone walking beside him with him
to contiune his another chapter of his life..
which is not ME and never be ME..
Now, I mean TODAY
den i noe.. he b'cuz of me..
nv get well with 3 gers...
i feel bad..
i wont say sorrry anymore..
cuz i noe my sorry make he tired..
make him realli tired and break down..
i feel im so useless tt i dun understand him..
hahahahahahahahahahahahaha...
maybe SHE will know ba..
even not MAYBE, i HOPE SHE will know..
cherish him when he is there for her..
no regrets for me..
cuz i see his is happier... =)
he miss HER as a baobei..
im been miss by him as a sis..
and no longer his Bb..
So, therefore, i not his Bb...
and so he is no longer mine too..
but in my heart he is always my Bb..
waitin.. .. .. .. ..
emo renee is tired yet no sleepin for me..
i miss him, family, frenz, sis and gang la...
im happy now.. cuz he is happy..
emo renee logging off with restless and misses.. *broken promises*
hope she is ur Mrs Right~
Wednesday, September 12, 2007
Im Feel Im Just So Stupid!!!
Stupid like a shit!!!!
STUPID!!!
IMMMM SOOOO STUPID!!!!
im just like a fool!!
A BIG FAT FOOL!!!
he has a blog which is like soo long ago..
yet i just found out second agooo..
he is sad being with me
no wonder no second chance for me..
im dun wan to grow up but wanna be like a kid
for him to care and love..
im so sorry my dearest one..
i didnt noe i make ur life suffer..
i didnt noe..
maybe like wad OUR buddies say..
i nv ever open my mouth..
u nv open ur mouth..
i nv open cuz of a extra him..
abt u.. maybe u scare hurtting me..
im like a fool and dun even noe how much actually u cherish me..
im soo sorry dearest...
how i wish the nite i tokin to is not OUR buddies but u..
immm so regret.. regret till i read ur blog
and tears for u once again..
at this very moment..
onli regrets come across.. if i knew u have a blog..
i will read and understand wad u actually nv ever tell me!
sorry my dearest.. i hurt u! but actually i love u~
but i noe regret is uselesss..
so now.. loving you doesnt mean i need to be with u..
seeing u happy makes me happy too...
now u already have a baobei..
best wishes onli from me to u..
just wanna see u smile once again~
can i dun grow up?? i wanna stay there forever~
i love you
-emo renee logging off tearing for him once again~ *broken promises*
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Okay~ leave my blog for few days le..
feeling sooo bad.. den here im back blogging again~....
Life for me is getting happier...
Without him.. i maybe get lonely.. lost.. and even feel like dying..
but credits onli to my buddies, darlings and frenz..
who pei me 24/7.. *muackxxx*
Getting really broke now..
i need job fast fast!!
and You guys noe wad?? Me and Darling*Shuling* going get our bike lesson~
WoooooooOOooo... Happy sia.. lolxxx...
=) woOooo.. and we promise to buy each other a helmet.. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!
nice nice nice...
so sian now.. feel like sleeping but yet i cannot sia sian!
i wan koon la.. arRrrrr....
aiya~ i will still miss him at times..
but his hongster make me realli haiiiZzzz..
he is back to who he is last time.. hai!
he dunno how pple get hurt! he realli dunno... hai!
i miss him.. yet hate him.. how how how how how~
Hongster Never Die
No Sex No Life
No Chee Bye No High..
WTF LAH!! Dunno la..
he is just a idiot NOWWWW!!!
x/33
back again sooOooo.. with photo updateddd =)
with gang of frenz.. muackx to buddies, darlings and frenx... Labels: bike, hurts and hate hongster
Saturday, September 08, 2007
Back blogging again!
Dont have enough sleep again~..
Damn Tired Now... ... Arrr...
Can someone just help me and kill me please... T_T
For so many things.. finally this is too curel for me and i choose to
GIVE UP of you.. ... ....
You nearly make me tear once again..
But you nv make it..
cuz maybe this time is really too curel le..
Make me hate u more den i love you..
i have no where to sleep..
no where to spend my night..
you are my only hope.. but things dun turn out the way it is..
you throw me alone!!! you actually did tt..
Finding places like mad at the very last minute..
but lucky! i have alot of kind frenz around..
thank you Zhi Xiong for the nite stay! =)
Realy thanz alot.. =) *frenz ever*
So this time i choose and clear of mind that i will give you up!
be fren ba.. my dearest baka..
fate put us together yet pull us away! no point contiune like tt ba.. lolx.
fren can always forever but not in relationship!..
i think/hope soon we can get over and be frenz like wad we use to be..
=)
Yesterday done u something...
but think i will still give it to ya since u are the one hu i wrote too..
but take note..
tt is written b4 i give up!
at this very moment.. I CHOOSE TO GIVE UP AND BE UR FREN!!! x33
i wan be ur frenz!!
last time i dunnno wad i wan. now i know very clearly..
i wan you as a good buddy, good bb, good fren of mine... =)
take care my frenz.. x33
i love my buddies.. Labels: buddies for ever
Thursday, September 06, 2007
At This Very Moment..
I having fever now.. hai!! but... i'm blogging away instead restin..
sorry bb for not listening to u..
but i think u should noe the reason behind it ba!.. hai...
sorry.. ... ....
suprise.. now my darling shan shan is with me.. she come down and find me. *muackx*
felt sooo loved.. lolx.. thank you darling.. haaha~ =)
talk to darling.. she is emo just like me..
can say.. she is even worst den me la.. ke lian de ta! sayang sayang wor..
*muackxxx*
hai.. we r all in no mood..
again JunJie sms me.. told me he broke off with his gf liao..
why now adays all break off de? kao!!!! so sad rite??
tears are like dun need money sia.. hai!!! T_T
hope i can hug him and cry now.. haihaihaihai!!! i miss him badly.. sia!!
*muackx to darling shan shan!!*
Okie okie okie okie. i just being stupid again!! hai!!
have a nice chinese quote.. but my pinyin sucks..
will update when i finish with it.. okie? hai!!! =Xxx... .. ...
I MISS HIM BADLY!!! SO BADLY!!
can i hug him.. wad is he feeling now? happy? honging? hai.. moodless....
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
Im Breaking Down Very Soon Again.. Too many combos can make me die~
Since yesterday 7+pm.. i having headache till now.
without enough water, sleep, rest and enviorment suxx..!
Fever is coming after me very soon!..
How i wish he was here to care me... Yah! I mean "HIM"
A list of things, place, music, timing i love yet i scare of!!
- Last Cabin of Mrt!!
*have a long travel with him from Bedok to BoonLay when we were soo close together, he hold my hand and give me warm when im soo tired, cold and restless*
-Red Chair Kopitiam!! (Jurong West Ave1 Blk4++)
*he help me buy food.. Pay for me.. wait for me to finish everything before we leave, it's also a place to let me understand him more cuz i noe wad he do eat and do not eat*
-Jurong West Street41
*A place i go 24/7 to feel my love, care and warm.. but now it's all so coldness over there.. only see hurt and no longer love!!*
-XG
*A place i first seem him, a place i pei him even im so tired, a place i noe he will at and a place i really can feel his care around*
-Bedok Mac
*A place i always buy food for him, A place i oso full my stomach when he unable to accompany me but yet i feel his care and warm...*
-His House
*A place i like to slack with him, a place i pei him wash the dishes, a place he first hug me, first kiss me and first saying "I LOVE YOU"*
-Jurong Point K Pool
*Come and wait for me to knock off, buy bubble tea and give me suprise!! A place when i work.. i see him... i feel soo protected..*
-My Bed
*First time chatting with him on phone for soo long.. he is tired yet nv tell me.. How good he is... Touched..*
-Just So You Know (Song)
*A song from him to me.. a song tt touched me.. a song tt make me reminds of him!!*
-Baby Dui Bu Qi (Song)
*A song from me to him, to show how sorry i am.. to tell him i actually love him the wrong way.. how i wish my phone ring was once again him.. and last!! can we have another chance?? to show him how important he is to me now!!!!*
-12am - 7am (timing)
*this timing is the timing i spend most with him!! yah with him!!! how i wish i dun meet this timing.. cuz i feel so lonely without him!! feel like crying LOUD now..!! I LOVE YOU!!*
To Him:
Actually in my mind u r soo good.. A good bf.. but every words from my mouth i had never say you are good. im so sorry if i hurt u! but actually you are good!! Just that i dun say out.. im sorry my dearest.. i love you.. sorry for being so selfish and kept all to myself..!! I feel so much better saying it out.. how i wish i could tell you once again!! and hold u tight in my arms.. and cry out loud..
Fever is coming.. i think i need to catch some sleep le.. haizz!!
This is making me soo old la..
Even yagami say i slim down liao.. Oh My God.. WTH happen to me..
im happy to hear tt.. but i wan to slim down in the rite way and not this..
Soon i will be breaking down.. So many comboss.. *Arrr*
Hope you like the porridge after all!!!
I LOVE YOU FREDDY!!! x33
can i hold you one more time?? can i? T_T
I LOVE HIM!!! FREDDY!!
Sunday, September 02, 2007
Back to blog.... a place i shout out all my feeling~
I feel so much better now after toking to someone and cry out like a baby~
A person he mind close with..
A person that understand him more den me..
A person who is there to hear me..
A person who actually let me know wad i wan next..
A person is someone which i will keep a secret..
Maybe between us.. Like what he said..
He always tot i noe.. but actually i dun even noe..
I always tot he understand but actually he dun oso..
so ended up we are in this way.. -.-"
cuz we dun communcation..
he told me.. although he always quarrel with his gf.. (secret person himself)
but from quarrel they understand each other more... understand wad the other party wan and needs.. Sometime quarrel do help alot..
He told me.. it's not all my fault...
This have to blame both parties...
but i always put the blame to myself...
cuz of my leg.. if nv go out nuthing will happen..
he said.. just b'cuz he dun understannd me.. he tot i will think and tok things out.
but im not tt kind of person.. *communcation*
What he say was rite..
I wan to be fren of his..
yet i cant let go..
even myself is lost.. so wad can i expect from him..?
True.. I agree wad he said..
maybe we really need time to think..
cuz at this moment.. both parties will not be normal if they face each other.
I agree.. cuz all my happiness is all actted out... cuz i dun wan him to worry~
Im so sorry that i act and lie him.. T_T
just wanna see him is okie... den i will peace....
Like what "he" said is also true.. Let myself know what i want den headed in~
not just hanging myself.. and making myself like a FOOL..
So i decided not to contact him that much!..
Just normal will do.. not gonna meet him for the time being...
think abt wad i really wan and realli feel..
last but not least... he decision is still important..
baby,im sorry but i love u!
aiya.. never sleep for past 3 days..
Promise him will take care of myself..
KAO!!! *slap slap slap my face*
sorry... i lie to u once again!!! T_T
** I WAN U BACK ** HOLD U CLOSE TO ME ** AND NEVER LET YOU GO AGAIN ** Labels: x/33 i love you
Saturday, September 01, 2007
At this very moment..
again.. i CRIED!!
kana scolded.. kana say.. and kana heck carex..
i love them more den i do...
but they are also the one hu hurt me more den anyone else..
how can i say and dun say too clearly?
ermm.. let me think..
maybe, if u are the one hu make me tear.. u will understand wad i trying to say!
okie.. fine fine fine...
Im just a useless person la..
Im someone u wanna avoid but u dun tell me straight in my face..
Im someone u dun even wanna care...
Im someone u dun even love..
Im someone u treat as stranger..
How can we be like last time?
Buddy is said from ur mouth but action dun seems rite!
You treat me even colder den ur normal Hi-Bye fren..
so is this the way buddy goes?
Okie.. nvm.. suan liao!!
STOP contacting is something i cant stop myself.
but i will try my best..
cuz i dun like of being avoid like u dun even noe e feeling..
okie? ur action speak louder den words..
i give up!!!! understand..
TIME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
anyone can come love me plz and replace him in my heart! ty..
im breaking down into pieces.. very soon~.......
at this moment he sure playing MAPLE again..
nvm.. give up~~~ I WAN TO GIVE UP!!
x/33333 *cry*
Once again...
Im lonely r3n3~
Should be at home sleeping soundly.. buttt...
ended up again i at lan shop.. blogging away~ hai....
yesterday nv sleep enough cuz i sleep for 4hr++
cuz kana bomb up by my jiejie for interview la...
of cuz i have to get my butt off my bed. and get ready and headed TOWN alone.
YAH!!! i said TOWN!! i went to TOWN today... Lolxxx..
it's been so long last i step at town area ar... lolxx..
so, of cuz i get myself my new slippers which i wanted for sooo LONG!! lolx.
I noe u guys wanna noe how is the interview goes..
The interview is good.. NO STRESS!! lolx..
all he ask is about my jiejie and he joke with me.. lolx.
so cool of him la.. feel so great ar.. lolx...!!
And i going to the second interview on Monday 2pm at jurong east! dunno how to go la..
but hope cash korkor can have time to fetch me over ar.. lolx..
Feel soooo sian now la.. nuthing to say much oso..!! and yah!!!
i meeted up sistax.. LOL!!!
wendy and gang.. and i get to see fairy's bf.. wooo... not a bad guy she had..
all now attached except me.. T_T
nvm.. good one is waiting for me ahead arr.. lolx.. so im still waiting!! x33
Have a great time laughing and catching up with themm... arrr..
miss the days in sec sch.. i love u all sistax! muackz..!!
nv take much pic.. onli 2 with fairy!! hai.. wanna get from her soon la... lolx.
muackx.. i love my sistax they are sooooo sweet la.! lolx..
lastly.. a pic for u guys to understand... ... ... ... ...
i did edit abit. cuz dun wanna let u guys noe.. .. .. *wink*
x33 muackz.. r3n3 wanna be in love~ can u be hers?? Labels: sistax, x33
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