He's Not The He That He Used To Be..

he had never rise his voice at me.. since tt day..
he had never hang my phone since tt day..
he had never throw me alone at home since tt day..
he had never fail to make me smile/laugh since tt day
he had never heck care me since tt day..
he used to be so missing me, since tt day..
he used to be worry abt me, since tt day..
he used to be making me laughing, since tt day..
he used to fetch me, since tt day..
he used to do planning for me, since tt day..
he used to pei me den his fren, since tt day..
he used to be the first person who will give me all the love and care, since tt day..
he used to be the best buddy i ever had, since tt day..
he used.. he had... all are gone now.. .. =(

he now make me tear because of him which i had nv been doing it...
but since tt day, im tearing because of him more den im smiling b'cuz of him..

all the "had" n "used" are all past tense.. it means.. those are no longer wad he is doing..
so how he expect me to accept everything? which he used n had done for me b4..
and now is totally diff.. the tone of voice he is having now towards me.. make me so afraid.. make me so scare.. make me have no trust.. make me worry.. make me thinking wild.. worst of all.. make me tearing. .. .=(

is not tt i wanted to.. is u whom made all this happen.. =(

u should understand me more den anyone.. why i have all the thinkings? u said.. u wil hold my hand till i walk out from my past.. but u are not doing it.. infact, u r pulling me back.. if that is the case please leave me alone and let me handle my single life, myself.. =(

i dun wanna get deeper in this.. if u reali understand me.. u wont do al those to me ytd
and yet u r enjoying away.. with ur buddies and friends.. i knew u too much.. infact, im afraid.. ..
i noe u not gonna listen anything.. or care abt me anymore. nvm..

maybe, tts just my life.. no one to be blame..

if only time can turn back, we will always be best buddies..