i strong enough for all the things...

he always appear offline/ignore me..
and alway wants me to be e one calling and kana hanged up the phone by him..
once, twice are all enough.. its not gonna work forever..
if u think its my fault den let it be...

im already tired of tearing..
cuz to me.. i still sense of no importants at all..
i just felt so silly.. damn fucking, cb, knn de silly..
for putting him at the very center of my heart..
i should have learn my lesson but why am i just so fucking useless and silly..

okay okay! when im angry.. he is normal..
now im normal, he is angry! arghhh! dunno how to please everyone..
im tired.. tml wrking again..

now i chose to be a good ger back home everyday to pei my mama..
to chat, tok or even understand her more and dun make her worry for me again
den spending my night pei-ing someone who dun cherish me at all..
i regreted.. i shouldnt let myself regret again.
i shouldnt let my mama worry for me again!

I LOVE MY MAMA!!
but praying this time round, my heart can realli follow my brain!...
and not against of wad i hope it can be..
i dun wanna him to be in the center any longer.. it hurts me more.. =(



ps: we r not meant for each other...