Am I Still Number One In His Heart ?

everything seem changes..
his buddies, bros are more important now..
nuthing is the same like last time.. like how it was used to be.. =(
does he realli understand wad i mean when i tell him ~?
or does he just listen and nod his head for fun??

haii.. .. ..
nuthing get in his head.. ..

onli hope he can use his heart and feel it..

i hate myself for loving u ~

please let me goo....
if u no longer treating me the same....
cuz i reali cant tahan any longer..

im breaking down into pieces.. ..

am i stil as important as before?

im realli tired of keeping everything to myself..
and now i descided to change my blog add...

i need a place for me to shout out..
i hate to keep inside myself.. i hate this feeling....
tearing out in my heart realli felt so xinku!
i am not the serene i used to be..

why must i force myself to change to someone whom is not longer me?
why must i be the one always listen listen listen...
why must i be the one always giving in?
why cant u listen to me den?
why must i be the one giving in and follow ur way..
i oso have the things i wan.. but had u change for me?

HAVE U?
u give me excuses and rejections..
isnt it should be a give and take? why am i forcing myself to e end tt i have to tear..
i have to stop myself lovin and caring.. i hate the way i am now..

U R SO SELFISH!
u always say, u think this and tt.. u done in ur own way.. u always say u noe can liao..
if tt is the case... den for wad? since i dun need to know.. den forget it..
I WAD OSO DUN NEED TO NOE~~~

WHO THE HELL AM I?
dun u think u r too selfish! I HATE NOW! I HATE THE WAY NOW!!!

arghhhhh...............

i need a break ~
im so tired ~
i need a long long rest ~

ps: i need peace..

Stay "+" ~

+ more love
+ more care
+ more concern
+ more time
+ more me
+ more more more of the good things..

"+" "+" "+"

feeling damn fucked up now! ~ !

no words can descride how am i feelin right now..
TIRED,
HUNGRY,
DISAPPOINTED,
CONFUSE,
UNPLEASANT
THINKING...


all these are wad i wanna sayl. but somehow i dunno how to put them in words
and tell wad is happening. and wad is going on.....

sometime im wondering.. does he noe.. or he just wanna act blur..
=~(


ps: i hate the way..

Just Hope The Time Can Stop At This Moment.. ..


cuz i love the moment we r having now.. ..
just hope time dun run too fast or slow.. just let this remain forever..

the smile im having now is wad i hoping to stay forever..




ps: a smile tt can speak thousand of my happiness

GOOD!~!

i love e way we r now~
i love e time we have now~
i love e memories tt getting in my head~

and

i love the way u love me too~



ps: i'm lovin it

disppointment ~

ur promises make me smile.. giving me hope..
but u will nv noe how much pain i will feel if u break ur promises..

ur promises made me lookin forward.. make my day pass..
but without any phone sms/call make me worry tt u forgot wad u had said..
u meant not mean to break the promises. i understand... but stil disappointment cant be hide..
i like the way u plan for everything.. but tt is all the past cuz now u dun do it any longer..

u can rmb to jio *** for movie and even say her for not jioing..
but me le? she dun watch = u oso dun wanna watch? den who am i?
if she is so much important.. den i shouldnt be the one holding ur hand to continue the future and dreams with u..




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