we break promises, memories break us
love me when i least deserve it because that is when i really need it

SERENE
Thursday, July 30, 2009

Replace ~

i dun think i did mention tt i lost my ring ~
but now.. i got myself a new ring and loving it lots..
credits to dar.. =)

Sometime, maybe we always think we can.. but when at diff points of time. things happen for a reason.. den u wil realise.. all along, its not wad u tot.. haaaa...
Learn this when e ring is disappear..

although missing my old ring.. cuz its e first and only DIAMOND ring tt i had from a bf..
but..... i love my NEW CHEAP RING TOO! =) cuz it looks so style on me! =)

im lovin' it


Mood: happy, tots, smile, disappointed

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

On Plane !~!

Finally, my butt is gonna be on plane in less than 12hours.. .. .
Yesh man.. .. . Gonna R & R.. .. .

hope things will goes well.. goes e way i want it to be..
please ~

Pray ~


Friday, July 17, 2009

Aims & Goals ~

i have not been behaving all this while.. makin my sister worry for me like hell.. disturb people's life in the middle of e night.. making everyone worry for me.. act so childishly when i know it myself, but i still go ahead with it.. being a siao char bo in everyone's who care for me sooo MUCH..

its time for me to wake up and walk on..
cuz i can nv stay in this way for the rest of my life..
sometime i need people to scold me up den i will release..
my mind just dun think soo much.. cuz i always wan it e way i wan it to be..
selfish me.. BITCH!~!

my thinking is not childish like wad he say.. but i choose to act in tt way instead.. i just dun understand why. sometime i need attention which i think is true.. i used "childish" as a excuse to do things the way i shouldnt.. to get all ur attention on me.. to get all the care that i do not have..
i agree im a cry baby.. but i dun act the way i am doing last time.. only this time round.. cuz i wanna felt love which i do not get it from my family.. if can.. i hope i dun need to grow and stay the childish all the time, waitin people to dote and love me with all they have.. seeing the way winwin gets all the attention and love from us.. im realli hope i dun grow at all.. =(

sorry for being a BITCH all the time..
i understand liao.. im no longer a kid.. i grow.. u all see me as an adult already, no longer a kid..
serene jiayou.. u will prove u r an adult and they will be please to see the change..
frenz are there for me.. so i have to help them too.. =)

i believe i can ~ lovin myself more now


Mood: happy, thinking, smiling


Will Prove ~


Thursday, July 16, 2009

Serene Tonight ~

Credits to
先生 ~

Although its a last minute purchase but i still
the way you give me suprises..
All this simple suprises are about to make me happy for the next 24hours..
Travel all the way down to my door step just to pass me my fav Tidbits Super Ring..
Simple joke to make me smile and forget about the stress im having at tt moment..
And last... of cuz ur company with me make me so stress-less and felt care by you~..

again.. u made me felt im appreciated and important.. thank you~

there is no reason to stop lovin u


Mood: happy, smiling, loved, cared, appreciated.. ..


Monday, July 13, 2009

You Always Didnt React The Way You Said You Will..

Replies from you are getting from sentences to a few words.. and now its only " ......... "
Replies from you are always started sweet but now its only " ......." even a stranger does beta den tt..
Replies from you are fast and expected to be something nice but now waiting for ur reply seems takin ages and afraid it turn out something i dun wish to get..
Replies from you are always putting me at the center of ur heart but now ur reply seems shut me outside e door step waiting for me to die off.. ..

Where are all the Old Smses!?
Where are all the TT u used to call?
Where are all the "imy" u used to mention?
Where are all the "wru" u used to asked?
Where are all the ................................... i used to have?

You are the one who always accompany me, giving me support tt i need.. but now you are the one who is making me so lost.. making me felt so useless.. making me like an idiot.. if tt's the case.. why would u wanna pull me up from the well? why wouldnt u just let me die off?

and again im alone in my own path... getting lost in the forest and no where to go..

where is all the USE TO?


Mood: lost, restless, hurt, lonely, stress

Sunday, July 12, 2009

如果可以, 我希望我可以做你的傻瓜.
永远的默默爱你.. .. .. ..

if loving u is making u sad..
i choose to give up u and tear in my bed..
so tt the next moment i look at u..
u will be smiling happily away..

its not because im no longer loving u..
it's because i love u too deep..

我不知道我的爱让你不快乐. . .
我之想说声"对不起!!"

Baby, Im Sorry!



Mood: sad, lonely, tear-less, speechless, hugless, careless..


Thursday, July 09, 2009

是习惯有你,还是爱上了你?


this sound so real.. sometimes im really wondering..
but i felt..
是爱上了你, 可是, 他习惯有我 ~




별 - By 유미

Meaning Of This Song In English ~

the wind is shaking the windows,and over my small room,
the stars fill up the sky, shining brightly too many to count,
the stars reassure tired me
they wipe away the many tears that are deep inside me

don’t be hurt too much..they hug me tight and pamper me
and comfort me,
telling me to go to sleep

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk
though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

My dream is coming. though it is unusual that my one star is bright
it is very bright, even blinding..it comes down to my shoulder
stop being so sad..it holds my hand as it touches me
and gives me a warm hug

though I’m exhausted to the point where I can’t walk though my tears blur my vision
I’ll still smile in front of my love that I’m not able to get

Even though our happy times were short, I’ll treasure it deep inside my heart
like those countless number of stars, forever

Only for today, I won’t cry though my eyes fill with tears
I want to laugh like those stars
Oh~ I want to cherish all my happy moments deep inside my heart
Like those countless number of stars, forever..


tis song explain my feelin tt im unable to explain in words..


Inside me, how much i wanna cry infront of u..
But i cant..... =(
cuz i realli hope every moment we spend together, u r happy.. cuz i wanna this to kept as a sweet memories of ours and forever in ur heart.. =( and last the great image of me.. ily!~



Hoping ~

Hoping tml will be the last day of stress i gonna get trut..
Hoping lesser problems come to me..
Hoping smile will always be real on my face n nv be fake..
Hoping people around me will cherish me more..
Hoping i will be treated good and fine..
Hoping... .... ...

and i onli can Hope.. .. ..


Thanks *** for those smses this few days.. kept my heart so warm and nice..
thanks i have frenz like u all who is there for me.. =)
i gonna be strong.. hope i can find back the old me.. ..
i need all ur support.. dun leave me alone..
i need all ur SUPPORT! thanks dudes! ily all!

im trying hard.. ..


Mood: speechless, lonely, stress and feeling fine ~

Wednesday, July 08, 2009

Serene is Stress ~
Why must life come in this way?
Cant we live without making any DECISION?
I hate to choose ~



never ending problems


Mood: Stress, Lonely, Restless, Jealous, Hate



Monday, July 06, 2009

Personal Test ~

Quiz: Is He The One For You?

Your relationship is moving forward. Just don't trip over.

You and him would be typical young lovers. It would not be all sweet and romantic if you got together, sometimes you would argue or get confused, but those elements would only make your relationship more exciting. At the moment you are probably assuming that he likes you, but sometimes you might not be so sure. Don't worry, you can be sure that he also feels the same way. When both of you sense special feeling towards each other, your relationship is certainly growing. What you should do is try to express your feelings a little more and learn more about him.

Quiz: Jealousy Test

You are a jealous person but you try not to let it show

You often get very jealous of others but you are successful at controlling your emotions publicly. When you feel that other people are winning things that you deserve, you get very upset, but you won't hurt anybody else by making a scene. Your jealousy is private. You might, for example, cry yourself to sleep at night when you get really jealous of someone.


Quiz: Get to know yourself better


Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy.

How do you view success:
You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:
You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.


You all sure can see lah hor..
New blog skin, new outlook.. =)

Its already 6.30am and i didnt noe abt it.. ..
has not been sleeping enough but i dunno why i juz cant close my eyes and sleep =.=
Its been sooooo long tt i stay till this "EARLY" lolx..
anyway... alot of tots running in my mind to keep me awake..
but now... think i realli need to go sleep b4 i can see Mr Sunshine...

haii..
still wondering.. how can time reali pass faster..
i dun wanna suffer like tt can? can i wash my brain now?
why am i always the one suffering from this?
where is the owner leh? why he dun wanna appear and help me?
argghhhh... my brain is dying... damn it...

this few days dun reali have regular meals.. argh! =(
48 hours 1 meal, 60 hours 1 meal... i can have at least 1 per day one le..
wad is happening to me? but like tt oso good la..
save money since im broke.. and oso can be slimmer.. =p

do not noe actually im lookin forward to my AL anot..

im afraid things dun go the right way...
im afraid wad if i done something wrong again...
im afraid wad is things i dun wanna noe/see happen just right infront of me.?


arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

Mood: confuse, lonely n lost

Saturday, July 04, 2009

Forgiveness? Chances? Letting Go?

people always say.. learn from ur mistake.. ask for forgiveness..
but is it really true? have anyone of u reali tot of forgiving someone?
do u all realli noe wad is forgive?

forgive is break into 2 parts.. FOR and GIVE..
FOR - FORget the mistake.. FOR the sake of ur other party..
GIVE - GIVE the person another chance to learn, study and work on his/her mistake..
- GIVE the person the courage.. the time.. to let him prove to u..
- GIVE him/her e full support of urs.. when u noe they need it most at tt point of time.

Chances..
if cant even forgive. how does chances came from?
dun say u keep giving chances.. when u dun even wanna forget the mistake and past tt happened.. if u reali does? please think and recall back.. had u ever reali forget and nv mention again?

if u had given chances.. when is the last time u tell the other party wad mistake they had made? or do u just keep silent till the very last day when u felt tt u had enough and u voice out everything? is this known as chance? u expect the other party to noe.. but but but! at some point of times.. u, urself wont noe wad is going on until the other party voice too.. so think abt wad chances are.. .. ..

Letting Go..
for u, maybe is easier to let go.. cuz everything e other party voice out.. u noe wad is going on.. and now u had enough and wanna let u.. of cuz its so much easier to let go.. cuz u already noe wad tt party wans.. and u think u had try ur best.. but had u ever think.. had u ever let e other party noe?

u noe doesnt mean he/she noe.. maybe to u... u say it once.. but recall.. need recall.. and dun just kept quiet.. nuthing gonna solve out.. so for u... is so much easier den anyone does.. .. .. ..


in a relationship.. communication is sooooo IMPORTANT!
yet u keep quiet! who will ever noe.. =(
so all i can say is.. i cant ask for forgiveness.. therefore no chances.. and last i have to force to let goo... =(


i have no choice other den Letting Go


Friday, July 03, 2009

爱有多少,付出也要有多少 爱情不是单行道 他的好更不是理所当然 生气时,想想他的可爱 抱怨时,想想他的委屈 冷战时,想想他的温柔 两人懂得付出,爱就会久远.... 毕竟,真心相爱并不容易,不要轻言别离