All About A Girl Name Serene

2011-12-20T02:58:00.000+08:00

again its Merry December!!!

may all my dearest ard me had a great 2011 and counting a beta yr 2012!!

2011-10-27T03:11:00.001+08:00

Just done w THIS SHIT!!
Time to SLeep!! Tryin to REST MORE before e war begins.. =)
Jiayou everyone including those tt r Q-ing..

nights to all peers..

2011-10-19T02:38:00.002+08:00

so fast, 1 year had pass.. and now its e Halloween Month again!!!

disappointed that Night Safari had cancel. but luckily i found out tt.. USS will have a Halloween event too. making me and kelkel so looking forward.. and of cuz my dearest bf!

eventually is a surprise for him.. but
hahaaaa.. nvm.. he is oso very looking forward.

but poor him gonna work 8 days straight! haiii...
faster past and we can have a Dual Date on e Halloween Night!

2011 Happy Halloween USS !!
WE ARE COMING!!!

2011-10-03T13:02:00.003+08:00

Stop Stacking

if u r one of it. =)

Especially Xue Zhang!! wahahahaaaa..

didn't know u care, concern and noe me so well

2011-09-24T03:05:00.002+08:00

His First Lie on 23.o9.2o11

although i keep saying no..
although i keep rejecting..

but u r e one who insist.
and take tis as just a thing tt u promise and dun need to fulfill it.
make me felt like im being lied.

i dun like it.
cuz..

lying hates me deep and pain. =(

2011-08-25T02:23:00.001+08:00

Month to Date.
The Lovely Couple
♥ US ♥

2011-08-01T02:00:00.000+08:00

its already e month of
August

2011-07-09T03:51:00.003+08:00

Happy Birthday
Lynn Koh

had an AWESOME 8july2011
felt so family, love and have lots of fun!!

glad tt my Lss able to join us.. as well as Katherine..

its really a Fun Day + my BMW is here along..

2011-06-07T03:22:00.000+08:00

my picture says it all .. .. ..

2011-06-01T03:35:00.000+08:00

i had nv learn how to b a good girlfriend.. ..

2011-05-25T12:38:00.000+08:00

Her Smile is e Reason of ALL! ♥♥

2011-05-17T06:00:00.002+08:00

keep this best memories..
that everyone had made it truth..
with every single one of u stepping into my life..
Thanks All..

even w those tt leave or tt stays..
e memories will still kept inside..
&...

the BEST THING about Memories ...
is we make THEM...

serene

2011-04-20T01:51:00.002+08:00

tiCk tOck . tiCk tOck . tiCk tOck

last den 24 hrs.. we are 1 Years Old !!
Thank You for Entering My Life.
Thank You for Showering All Your Love on Me.
Thank You for All the Time You Reserve for Me.
Thank You for Proving Me tt Love is True.
Thank You for Giving me Hope in Life.
Thank You for Putting on Smiles On my Face.

.... Thank You ....

nv had u enter in my Life..
there's NO ME today..

Baby, I Love You !!

2011-03-23T16:26:00.005+08:00

A Special Place that He Plan for e Date..

we r going to e Zoo, Zoo, zoo..
ZOO !!

a special day that he planned..
have fun seeing cute animals like Bunny!!!
although its hot and tired to walk under e sun..
but its all worth it..

cuz he is just beside me..
accompany me sharing e same feeling..
thanks to him for everything..

n we ended e day w a Funny Movie.
Big Mommas..
AWESOME DAY!!!!

2011-03-18T02:50:00.002+08:00

if Only... ...

if only we can stop..
we will always wan to b in e past..

if only we can forget..
we will always wan to forget wadeva make us sad..

if only we can change..
we will always wan to change to e positive side..

if only we can be..
we will always wan to be e "one" tt everyone wishes..

but.. fair enough..
all of e above u can do it..
but how true can tt be...?

cuz u can lie to e whole world..
but.... can NEVER BE URSELF!!! ...

2011-03-02T03:56:00.002+08:00

it's our FIRST TIME attending a Malay Wedding..
dun realli noe how it goes. but lucky enough to have frenz ard to tell us more about it.. if not damn paiseh of not giving both side angbaos. lolx..

this Occasion allow our OLD BUDDIES MEET TUP AGAIN..
the Old Imm-ians CHIO BUS gang!!! fun and laughter tt i can nv forget!
and its like FINALLY i got e chance to see Megan and touch her little cute and chubby cheeks.. really cant stop looking at her and waiting for her little smile frm her face..
she is an angel of her parents..!! IM SURE!!

Congrats on this Newly Married Couple..

Awaiting for the GOOD NEWS!!! after coming back frm Honeymoon!!
Blissful Marriage my dearest GAY and LEHA LONG!!!

Best Wishes..
Frm: FeiFei =)

2011-03-02T03:48:00.003+08:00

we Won e BEST DRESS award... and its $1188 CASH!! $_$
Well Done IMM-ians!!!
the Pretty Indian Love & e Uncle Ba-Ya.. LOLS!!
Thanks 2010 Cwp warriors to get me this Award of being a
Mini Shop Top Sales Person!!!
IM PROUD OF CWP!!! YEAH!!!! =)
I LOVE U ALL!
THE IMM 2011 WARRIORS!!!!!
OUR 2011 M1 SHOP AWARDS NIGHT!!

had a memorble night.. w fun and laughter.. thanks all for the fun and joy.. although im not realli gonna ba part of imm for long.. but still.. thanks for letting me to join in and i feel home!!

AI NI MENG OHHH!!!!
TAOYAN!!!

2011-03-02T03:43:00.002+08:00

Im Really Sorry For e Late Update!!!

Happy Belated Birthday to my Notti yet Loveable Nephew..
WinWin!!
He is 2 YEARS OLD LIAO!!!
OMG!! time really flies..

meimei already abt 7 mths too!!
Chua Family~ i spend most of my money of my 2 little cutie ..
cant stop missing them...

but this month no weekend off.. so sad!!!
i miss them badly! yiyi loves u all!!~

2011-02-15T05:45:00.002+08:00

Happy Valentine Day for all Couples..
&
Happy BFF Day for those who r Singles..
but im Sure ur Good Friends will b there w ya...

Thanks for my bbi, who had order e flowers in advance
and planned well w my Craving on my Mac Breakfast Days agoo..
Which ytd night i alrdy tot i will get nuthing but disappointment..
but who noes..
he nv failed to touch my heart.. LoveLove.. ♥♥

of cuz my Beloved LoveLove, Kelly.. she is still my lovelove afterall..
nv e less.. she got a valentine suprise frm me..
but so sad.. i nv get in-return.. =(
but okay la.. its e tots tt counts.. hope she love e Hello Kitty Jelly..
n my hardwork of e V Day Card specially onli for HER..
last but not least.. end e post w our LOVELY PIC!!love him ♥♥

2011-02-13T12:06:00.002+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday to Myself..

a wonderful and unforgettable birthday i had this year..
celebrate at MBS. prepared by my Lss..
Order e WINNIE E POOH CAKE ..
invite all my closes one for e special event of mine..

overall its a happi one.. and suprise..
my Jie Fu comes along~

=)
last but not least..
cuz of chinese new year~
everyone is gambling lah..!! humph..
and yvonne make it in time for a short catch up although she was onli here awhile..
thanks everyone for coming at the late hour..

Serene is a Xmm..

2011-02-03T01:35:00.002+08:00

Happy Labbit 2011 Year !!!!~

although i heard frm mummy this year seems not a smooth year...
but path is by own feet/feel to choose.. so i gonna make it smooth.
jiayou everyone!!!

Lets make Labbit year a beta year den Tiger !!

DA JIA HUAT HUAT HUAT AHH!!!!

2011-01-30T03:53:00.002+08:00

30jan2011

another year had passed..
miss is e onli thing i can do..
sorry is e onli thing i can say..
love is e onli thing i dun have e right to mention..

but still..

wana wish u a
"Happy Birthday!!"

stay strong, healthy n rmb me not..
*cry*

2010-11-14T02:05:00.002+08:00

Congrats to Mr & Mrs Goh ~!!!

13.11.2010
e date tt start their new life..
w her by his side.. and him by her side..
so lovely and xingfu!!

JiaYing, Promise me, yao JIAYOU and XINGFU ohhh!!!2 out of 5 of us had started their next new life..
while im still standing at e same useless spot..
lookin them finding their xingfu realli make me feel so warm..

i love their smiles...
but oso afraid their tears.. i love her..

JIA YOU!!!
may god bless ur family ~
jiayou DARLING~~~!!

2010-11-12T02:12:00.002+08:00

Everyone around me is getting married...
Even e one tt we used to guess to b last married..
Had now stepped on e red carpet to share her future w her Husband Mr Bai JunLi..

Seeing them being together for years...
Thin and Thick tt they had gone trut..
Finally they gonna have their own Future, Family, Kids n Happiness...

Wishing them all the best!!!!!
Never e Less..
Our dearest JiaYing n WenJie is getting married this Saturday which is Tomolo!!
another one setting up their own family..
really happy for them.. as we first started noeing each other being so childish..
so playful, so unreasonable.. to today a YOUNG ADULT going to b a parenthood...

look in e mirror.. wondering when will b my turn!
.......... lets not say tt ba...

long long way to go still... lolx..

Good Night Bloggers...
can feel e wedding bells are ringing..

2010-11-06T02:06:00.001+08:00

Im tired...

Totally no life.. Omg..

Nt even a secson to update my blog.. =(

2010-10-07T13:08:00.001+08:00

Hurts Me!!

" In e 1st place I Neva treat u as maid.
I Neva beg u to cum. U r e one who
say anything i need u to buy. Frm e
beginning til nw. I Neva beg u b4, U
always e one If u wanna say n this way,
u jolly well don't appear in front of me. "

After reading w/o waiting tears rolling down my cheek.
i do not know wad i had done wrong and made her so angry.
but... between me and her..
isnt she's e one who understand me in n out?
isnt she noe me more den anyone else does?
wad happen again..?

now....
seems like strange to me...
who is e closes person i had now?
although its just a sms..

its HURTS ME trut e heart !!!

2010-10-06T00:59:00.001+08:00

TRUST is e word !!

2010-09-22T02:56:00.002+08:00

FUCK IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

again, i hate e words!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
again, ur thinking...!!!!!!!!!!!
again.....

nv change!!!!!!
arghhhhh.

2010-09-15T03:03:00.001+08:00

everything changes..

even e topics we used to have..

2010-09-03T00:43:00.003+08:00

IMPORTANT ..

u said important..
but how do u measure it ..?
how u descride it ..?
how do u show it ..?

i seriously dun understand this simple word now..

cuz i felt im no longer important..

2010-08-20T07:55:00.003+08:00

HOME..? 家。。？

家used to be a warm place to be at...
家used to be e happiness place i wanna stay at forever..
家used to be no strangers..
家used to be happy family..
家used to be a place i will hide in when im in danger..
家used to be e place i can walk ard w eyes closed..
家used to be a 家 to me..
家....

now its not e way it's used to be..
家..?
家是什么！？

这还是家吗。？

wish im walkin in e rain now..
i miss my ahgong, ahma n my past ...

*tearing*

2010-08-03T02:04:00.003+08:00

~ 好人难作 ~

i nv done enough or they asking too much..?
i travel all e way by MRT ....
alone carrying so many cups ....
never collect a single cent ...

yet still let ppl say ...
how much i feel like crying ...
wad had i nv done enough..?
im just a human ....

i only have 2 hands...
and all r FREE for u ....

* 好人难作 *

2010-07-23T02:54:00.002+08:00

手心是肉，手掌也是肉。。。

朋友和男友都是生命中都要的。。。。
为何呢。。。？

我也只是一个人。。。

2010-07-22T00:36:00.002+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday VonVon !!~

DIY done by me.. hope she loves it !!!~

stay cheerful, cute, pretty and positive ever !!~

no matter distance, time or chances...
remember we r e one who created the S.K.Y tt everyone loves and see everyday~

loves~ my dearest Kelly n Yvonne

2010-07-19T19:24:00.001+08:00

Too long of not updating....

everyone seems quiet down on visiting my blog.. ^^v

yeah! den i can blog wadever i wan now!!
Wow !! Wow !!

bleah~*//

2010-07-17T23:12:00.006+08:00

With Him Around...Things had change in my life....
Have someone to dote me.. sayang me.. love me...

with him around.. more rubbish frm me too..
simply.. i just love him deep...

*muacks*

Down w sickness.. can see how worry he realli can b and nv fail to nag me to rest and take medi.. but.. wad i wan is him sitting beside my bed.. sayang my forehead till i fall into deep sleep... and kiss on it.. to let me have e sweetest dream... but but but..... he had nv done tt b4...~

=(

Our same off day.. nv fail he will go suntec and try his Stupid Luck to catch my fav toytoy for me... this time round.. he got me a big head melody!!!~ =) so sweet of him..
and i hug it e whole day no matter where i gooo~

A DIY cake done by me for him.. =) to make him unhappy tt morning..
just being stupid on my idiot temper.. Arghhhh!!
Sorry bibi!!~ u noe la.. in my heart... i love u deep deep!!~

next~
we went Our First Oversea Trip... to a near country... name Malaysia. lolx..
Stupid... hahaaa..

we headed to Genting... =)
me n my Germany!!
He wan SPAIN!! humph!

His Oversea Kiss to Me!!! *love*

im a happy ger w him enter in my life.. doting n loving me every seconds..
A man.. im looking for... BiBi!

I LOVE YOU!!!!

2010-06-24T01:55:00.003+08:00

24.o6.2o1o

mark on my calendar of another
FAILURE

64days !!

its all proven..
falling in love again..? sorry... i dun trust tt any longer..

2010-06-16T12:16:00.001+08:00

爱我的他。。
我爱的他。。

*love*

2010-06-15T00:20:00.004+08:00

六月十五日二O一O年

这一天是你第一次这样对待我。。

好痛好痛！！真的好痛！！
可是，这都是我的错。我子能说对不起。。

我想。。。。。
我还是不可以在爱情里遭到幸福！！

对不起，我伤害了你。。

2010-06-08T02:49:00.003+08:00

"After u've done e best tat u can do
& u've spent all e passion, courage n effort u hav,
but tings stil seem out ofreach,
den tis is e time for u to ask God
if wat u've tried to achieve is wat he wans u to hav.
Bcoz sumtimes we waste our time chasing sumtin tat is nt meant for us,
while we ignore wat God has prepared for us."

--- 过去就让它过去吧...
其实很多事不知道可能比较好 ..
如果知道了只能告诉自己该往前看了 ..
再执着也没用 ..
This is life

came across this frm vivian on FB...
come to read and think abt it.. somehow i felt its so true...

maybe by the time when he/she/something had seen ur effort..
everything is just too late to hold on too..
tts wad God realli had prepare for what e other party..
why wanna let go e one u r having and chase on something u had long lost it..
things running in my mind again....

time proven everything..
time tells u everything..
time changes everything..
time goes and nv stop just because of u...

so am i right to say tt..
cherish wadever u have den regreting..?

cuz nuthing gonna go back for u..

i hope i reali have no regrets..
jiayou ba!!

2010-06-04T01:37:00.001+08:00

Isn't He Sweet..?

Lolx.. act shy only.. .. ..
but he simply just so sweet to touches my heart !!

2010-06-02T04:22:00.001+08:00

http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=616287175&v=wall#!/video/video.php?v=1364298361936

A lovely Wedding Video!

Marriage..? just seems like a Fairy Tale..
It seems tt it will nv come true..

but still..
wish everyone all e best!

2010-05-30T04:30:00.002+08:00

What Am I Thinking Again...?

Sudden Emo made me cant slp.. =(

He is WAY too good for me to cherish..
im so afraid one day he will just shout in my face for something i had done..
but im so NOT used to it tt someone actually contorl me..
wad is happening to me..

what he mention is true..
im wondering too...
"why those whom dun cherish me, i believe what they had said.."
"but why whom cherish and love me deeply, i have doubts on them.."

sometime im wondering..
its not tt i dun believe.. but its just tt i love sweet replies...
and i keep thinking e negative so tt if one day anything realli happens. it wont realli hurt me to e max.. cuz i always have e mindset tt... i dun worth anyone to love me and dote me to this kind of limits...

im not saying i dun wan but just tt i felt i dun deserve.. =(
babii.. im sorry to make u sad... but im realli afraid, if one day u no longer treat me e same..
hw am i going to answer myself and how am i gonna face e world...

again..
babii.. Im Sorry !! =(

2010-05-29T00:41:00.001+08:00

Hope He Loves

Every Min

Every Second

Every Moment

just being with me... =)

*love*

2010-05-21T02:10:00.001+08:00

Ai Xin Lunch for Him..!!

Happy to hear frm him tt it taste good and smell nice.. =)
he wans more.. lolx.. =p

love him ♥

2010-05-15T03:39:00.002+08:00

SLAP MYSELF HARD !!!

this time round.. how am i gonna forgive myself even u do..
im just another failure... getting simply SO FORGETFUL..
making him worry, wake up in e middle of e nite for me..
he is just WAY to good to me till im so afraid all this will stop..

nv gets angry w me..
nv gets annoy by me..
nv gets frustrate by me..
nv gets tired of me..
nv say NO to me useless its realli nt a gd idea (eg:club/late night)
nv try ways to make me jealous..
nv lie to me.. (till now)
nv betray me.. (till now)
nv try to let go my hand when he is in hold of mine..

..
..
alot more but now brain is dead..
im sure im able to continue more..

he nv gets angry on me.. which things happen tt i sure will make a BIG OH HA if he did tt on me.. i really hope he can be angry w me.. at least i wont feel tt bad.. he making me.. feeling i dun deserve someone so good like him.. =(
what is happening to me..?
good i complain, not good oso complain.. arghh!

he's really a Good bf i ever met in my life..
maybe some is oso this sweet... but but but.. all are just short term..
hopin this will last .. thanks BiBi..

bibi, ilu ♥♥

2010-05-13T08:47:00.002+08:00

Wondering...

Am i really that bad ?
Am i really asking for too much ?
Am i really the one giving problem to this r/s ?
Am i really that hecking caring to this r/s ?
Am i really what u had said everything ?
Are u seriously in this r/s ?
Are u saying e truth ?
Are u sick and tired of me ?

What had happen..?
Why am i always e afraid party ?
Why am i always felt being not important ?
Why am i always so jealous ?
Why i dun have confidence ?
Why sometime when u say those words, hurt me deeply ?
Why Why ..? n How ? How ..?

who can answer me all..?

2010-05-03T02:47:00.005+08:00

Updates w Pictures!!

o2 May 2o1o
"he" bought me LG Lollipop tt i wanted long ago even it havent even launch yet..
isn't tt sweet enough..? although its simply but its just so sweet.. =)
Love this CUTIE phone...

♥♥

Its PINK colour..
although i used to dislike pink alot.. but somehow...
no longer now.. yet now felt pink is lovely... =)
or.. maybe i had become more girlish as compared to last time.. =p
Suprise frm "him"
of cuz.. no miss of me suprising him..
people who noe me well.. will noe tt i love suprising my beloved people..
even tot just frenz, family or even coll.. seeing them smiling make me smile too.. =)
therefore.. here comes e Ai Xin Sandwich... dunno he likes it anot..
but overall it seems normal to him.. no excitment... =( haii....
Failure once again!!
Decorate e lunch box too.. =)
w cute and nice sandwich.. of cuz deco by sweet ger pics.. lolx.
its all my past neo-print.. i dig them all out and get it done...
my effort okay? lolx.. =x

Past pictures...
Thanks to my Beloved "XS" for this Bag..
wans this size of bag LONG LONG agooo...
and now he actually get it for me w/o any reason...
just felt i need it and get it for me..
omg！！ its soooo EX lah!!! but he refuse to collect my money.. argh!
anyway.. i appreciate and THANKS alot.. =)This few days.. my legs are ichy till i cant even slp..
=( it bleeds at time.. and i apply medi oso no use..
after tt e ichyness came back again! i hate it... =(
made my leg so UGLY~!~!
Once again totful "XS" get this for me.. to relief e ichy of it.. =)
and get me e Ring tt i lost it tt day.. as i purchase it but unable to find in e bag.. =(
but e one is wan is WHITE =x hahaaaa...
black is oso nice.. its e tot tt counts.. THANKS!! muacks!
Miss This 3 Naughty !
Penguin and mini penguin.. lolx..
soooo CUTE.. got e mini penguin at USS.. =)
all thanks to e gift vouchers.. ♥Last but not least..
end e post w a "=.=" face baaa.. lolx.
e owner of e blog.. =p
tata all..
rest well and have a nice nite...

serene is smiling.. wad abt u..?

2010-05-02T03:55:00.002+08:00

No News !! ~

Hope He Is Fine..
my dearest buddy, xiansheng..

2010-04-28T01:46:00.003+08:00

Suprises From e Special Him

waited for me nearly 4hrs just to fetch me frm work..
accompany me trained.. and accompany for supper..

he is so tired.. yet done so much..
isnt tt sweet enough..?

hope this is not just for e moment.. but it contiunes..
w him around, nuthing to worry, nuthing much to think..
just felt like a carefree xiaomeimei w him..
can let all e worries handle himself..

times to times
simply just cant get mad on things he do..
after awhile.. i will just b fine..
cuz somehow... he easily make me =) and catch my heart back..
w him... wad else can i complain..?

let e pictures do e toking..

2010-04-25T02:09:00.003+08:00

我和他。。。?

我相信。。。

我们只能做比情人更好的朋友

应为到最后他还是他。。
还是那个我认识的他。。
如果是为了我改变就不是他自己了，当然他的改变是为了他好。。
但，不管他变成怎样，
在我心里我还是会记得我有一个像他怎样好的朋友。。

永远的好朋友！！
永远记得有一个永远都在我背后帮我和关心我的朋友。。。。

谢谢你带我回到这世界。。。。
我永远的好朋友！！

2010-04-21T03:28:00.002+08:00

♥ 21april2010 ♥

confuse, fan, thinking, wondering

aint all this is wad i wan in e past..
why everything is just so sudden..

u r still who u r..
nuthing gonna change u i believe..
im tired..

im tired of all e disappointments..
im tired of all e empty promises..
im tired of all e lies..

time to let go... ...
shouldn't i..?

2010-04-19T03:17:00.002+08:00

S.H.E - 612星球

满园玫瑰我以为找到我那一朵
认真爱了却狠狠刺伤我的双手
责备什麼人也没有用
玫瑰都红难免看错

望著天空爱是否活在童话裏头
小王子说有些事流浪过才会懂
原来每颗心都有个洞
找不到真爱会一直寂寞 Oh ~ ~

** 我但愿有一个人在等我
在属於我的612星球
好让我忍著痛也愿意往下走
不快乐至少要有梦 ~

一定会有一个人在等我
无条件拥抱著我的所有
相遇前我还要翻越多少山丘
花别谢太快请你等等我 ~ **

擦乾眼泪一个人漂流在这宇宙
小王子说爱一定开在某个角落
路上相爱的人那麼多
我会幸福吗在什麼时候 Oh ~ ~

**
**

2010-04-17T02:37:00.001+08:00

He touches my heart on
17.04.10

♥♥♥

dun get e wrong idea..
im still single.. =)

2010-04-16T02:47:00.002+08:00

1st step of life - to overcome urself...

still brainstorming... how to..?
haii.. had a nice chat w him just now..
just dunno wad he will b thinking..

regreting...?
confusing..?
i realli dunno...

im reali afraid.. how to overcome..?
haii~

14.04 - saw his ex gf..
14.04 - 1st k-ing w him..
14.04 - 1st met up w his frenz..

recording contiune.. ..

2010-04-14T03:15:00.003+08:00

Guys are just like Leopards !!
cuz, Leopards can nv change their spots..

this time, my heart is dead off.. other den being disappointed.. normally i will fault angry and say him, scold him.. but this time round.. i felt numb.. cuz im alrdy prepare for tis day to come.. im just wondering.. why he dun appreciate pple at all.. he loves his way.. he had nv tot of hw others may worry, may feel.. he just wan his way out.. and again.. he LIED !!! why do i deserve this kind of thingy? can anyone tell me..?

thinking.. how many times does he wanna lied to me or even backstab me..
im really worry.. im really thinking..
wad had i done to him to deserve all this shit frm him..
while he is e one telling me.. i shouldnt had got this shit frm anyone..
but now.. HE IS E ONE !!

FML !!

so.. how truthful can he be trusted?
im lost again..

someone please bring me out of it.. thanks!

2010-04-13T19:15:00.001+08:00

come to my mind of e song

相爱没有那麽容易

每个人有他的脾气~

its so true ~

2010-04-13T02:46:00.002+08:00

o6.o4 - 1st movie w him.. at ms..
o9.04 - 92 missed calls..
11.o4 - 1st time propose to me tt he wans me to b his gf.
12.04 - 1st walked me home frm lakeside mrt..
13.04 - 1st "i love u" sms frm him..

just as a record.. nothing much..
everything is just a dream to me..
cuz i dun deserve someone like him.. =)

im still on my own.. ^^v

2010-04-12T02:12:00.003+08:00

Mr Right ??

is he the Mr Right ??
will he be the Mr Right ??

maybe now.. feeling is no longer important..
wad i need now is someone who realli noes me and understand me.
dote me, love me n accompany me when i need...

wad if .... .... ??
wad will ..... ..... ??

argh....

2010-04-07T02:46:00.002+08:00

New Melody...
same size as e one im having too... =)

Sometime im wondering.. how come.. even younger guys/gers can b more totful den e older..?
he use his effort and just get a Melody for me as he promise he will since last week.
but didnt tot he realli will spend money to CATCH this for me instead..

How totful can tt be? and even bring me for a movie.. which i seldom go..
dislike disappointment.. so i had nv ask..
but tt is how totful he is to even ask me for movie, booked and plan everything on time.. =)

had a nice chat w him..
noe he is a caring guy too..
but he oso have a very very BAD HABIT!!~!!
he gamble too.. but will limits.. =)
at least not as bad..

he listen for advise...
he feels how pple feels..
tts so positive of him.. =)

Hope another outing with him.. feel carefree and hapi~..

2010-03-30T02:42:00.003+08:00

Everything Had Changed..

Nothing is e same as it used to be...
i reali regret y i dun hold on to my point of view 1 yr ago...
now everything had changed...

he used his mouth to say...
but action speaks louder den words...

he is no longer e buddy, xiansheng i used to have...

ignore, heck care attitude..
whom i used to share every single tear with..

who can i tok to? who can i face to..?

2010-03-24T22:52:00.002+08:00

Actually, Eventually, Outcome

there are so many Actually and Eventually...
and ended up w a Outcome tt i dun wish to get...

there can be thousands, hundreds n even million of Actually,
but just a Eventually... everything is DESTORY..

1000 good A + 1 bad E = Bad Outcome
1 good A + 1 good E = Nice Outcome
1 bad A + 1 good E = 50/50 Outcome
1 bad A + 1 bad E = Bad Outcome

sooo.. eventually is always important..
so... wad eventually will u be giving to me...?

im always glad u will reply "=(" whenever u unable to make it for me..
means tt.. u r sad and unhapi ....
but in another way... im thinking.. do u reali mean it ~?
or are u just toying me ~?
i think i had done e best alrdy.. all is up to u ...

but all i can say is.. even i have millions of positive Actually...
just ur 1 and onli negative Eventually...
everything are still Destory....
so...

am i not doing my part...
or just tt, u r pushing it away...?

2010-03-22T02:46:00.003+08:00

My Head is Cracking...

Falling Sick.. but cant rest...
finding, searching for e best plans.. =(

its nearer.. how..?
help please.. hope... e outcome is not wad i think..

praying..

2010-03-18T02:08:00.002+08:00

Afraid Of Disappointment...

this is something i reali must change..
but yet... dunno how to...

sometime i choose to b alone..
choose not to ask..
choose to b quiet..
is because...

im afraid of Disappointment.. ..
especially when u had tried ur best and done alot...
but e outcome... forever a Disappointment..

im not as brave as i used to be..
im not as strong as how i used to behave..
wad had happen and changed me...?

cuz of too much of falling..?
afraid being hurt again..?
or......

i oso dunno....

Last time.. no matter how.. no matter wad...
im always so Brave and Strong..
but why now...?

2010-03-16T04:20:00.000+08:00

Planning....? ?
not i dun wan to... is there wasnt any reply..

suprise? not i dun wan to..
im afraid, on tt day, he told me i should inform him earlier..

i dunno wad to do..
wad im thinking..?
shouldn't i had let go...?
den wad am i planning for....?

oh ya oh ya..
im just planning for a best friend of mine.. ..

2010-03-15T02:25:00.001+08:00

Love tt Little Suprise and Tot....

maybe to u its not a suprise, but somehow..
to me.. it is..
at least, at tt moment im not forgotten.. =)
Drink in my Mouth, Feel in my Heart..

Thanks! ~ !
Appreciated ur little care.. =)

2010-03-13T00:11:00.002+08:00

I always knew looking back on the tears would make me laugh;
but i never knew looking back on the laughs would make me cry

am i not good enough..
or u just simply dun care abt how pples feel?

are u used to it,
or am i just thinking too much?

Finally, i kept all e soft toy i had on bed in my cupboard.
Deleted all his numbers/pictures/smses frm my 2 hps.

this time round is realli to e max...
i think.. i had gave myself enough time for u..
change to someone will appreciate, will share, will inform..
i guess.. i had max out..
yet its been a year since we first realli starting.. and noeing each other as a life-time partner.
den, we release tt we are not meant for each other..
but still.. feelings e same. Never less since tt day..
but time and time of disappointment. onli e sea can b measure how much i had tear.

aint im tryin to b e best out of e best..?
or u just wanna prove me tt wad others said are true?
tt, u can nv b a good partner.. but u r e best buddies or friends of all...

i can rmb, u can run al e way to seragoon to pray
u can go al e way to geylang to meet cousin
u can make e effort to wake up to meet ur beloved buddies
u can remember others pple date but nv be mine..
u thanks ppl when pple do something for u..
u reply all ur frens smses when u wake up e next morning.. if u miss it in e nite.
u always smile happily infront of others.. but i had long lost it...

but if now.. i ask u..
do u stil remember how many promises u made to me.. yet till now u havent even done it?
or, do u think after all e promises had been broken.. u do not need to amend it at al?
or... u dun even care abt it.. any longer..?

but.. do u noe.. at least im still waitin for e day being apprecaite..?

im still waiting...

2010-03-08T03:24:00.003+08:00

我相信这次不是我后悔了。。。
因为，我发现到。。有其他人比你更珍惜我。。

被誊还是最开心的。。=)

2010-03-06T04:15:00.001+08:00

Message to Jiahui jie..
Jiahui say.. i can say la. i onli update when i have things to say.. but to nobody..
so i will actually tell my one and only place.. My Blog/Diary..
Of cuz, have happiness as well.. but seems so little.. =( anyway...
My Love dun love me any longer.. 有了老公的女人是不一样的。
在结了婚的女人生活里，只有老公，家庭和孩子。。
我子好一个人噢。。。

一个人的生活。。。。

2010-03-04T02:59:00.003+08:00

TEARS OF JOY!!

now.. im believe
Fairytales do Come True..
Miracle do Happens..

this news gave me a brighten up path...
to give me hope to look forward..

maybe wont b soon nor near..
but i believe.. one day i oso can b e princess n have it happens in my life too..

Thanks PaPa n MaMa..
e TRUE FAIRYTALE STORY IN MY REAL LIFE..

ibelieve.... .....

2010-03-03T03:57:00.002+08:00

我想这次，我因该放手了。。

不是我不要了。。。
而是你比我放手的。。。

我不知道要做什么才好。。。
你永远都觉得你是对的。。
永远都不会把我放在眼里。。。

我真的那么擦吗。。。?

hai...

2010-03-02T01:58:00.001+08:00

任何决定要的，就不要放手，

包括在乎的人。。

所以我没有放手。。

2010-03-01T01:55:00.001+08:00

A Gambler VS A Flirty

who will u give e chance too..?

2010-02-26T02:59:00.002+08:00

Oppss..

Happy Belated Birthday Mr Hu

Wishes Come True..
Hope more comes along.. Jiayo!!
Stay this happiness always..

*but disappointed cuz e bloody bday boii LIE to me..*
hahaaa.. but...
Im glad.. he enjoy his 23bday.. =)

GIVE ME UR LUCK LEH!!!~!!! hahaaa.. =x

2010-02-26T02:25:00.005+08:00

这几天的我真的都过的好开心。。
想是一定会的，可是在也不会像那时候的我。。每天在家里哭。。

我真的放弃了吗?
还是我不甘想太多。。
子要好好的过我的每一天就可以了。。

他真的那么快乐吗?
他真的没想我吗?
还是他已不在爱我了。?
难道，我们就这样了吗。?

我不想在想了。。。好累！！真的好累。。

到时候，我也应该被誊了吧。
人家把我当宝，你把我当草。。

我应该给人家一个机会吗。。。?
还是想一想比交好。。不要在错了。。

我想信我可以的。。。加油！！

**Message for JiaHui**
谢谢你。。
我想信，有义天，一定会有人来珍惜我们。。
jiahui姐姐，真的好谢谢你。。

不会在让你失望。。 =)

2010-02-23T02:17:00.002+08:00

新的开始了。。
要自己一个好好的照顾自己了。。

我相信，什么都不一样了。。
下个月起，有新的生活。不像以前在可以依赖他了。。。
我要好好的加油。我相信我一定可以的。。

许恺雯，加油！！加油！！

相信他在那里一定会比较开心。不会像每次“haiz haiz haiz”的。。。
一点都不像他。。因为有了我以后，他才每次“haiz haiz hai”的。。
对不起。。。我还是喜欢那个每天开开心心的你。。
我相信。。。。。。。你一定会过得很好很好。。
瑞兴，要加油！！加油！加油！！

希望我也可以。。。 =)

2010-02-22T06:06:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST LITTLE CUTIE NEPHEW MR WIN CHUA !!

had a great MINI celebration for winwin's birthday...
Get him 2 BIG CUTE BALLOONS... cuz he loves balloon..
and his CAKE is so cute tt.... i can non stop taking pictures..

He is getting cuter day by day...
BUT
also.. getting naughtier.. cant tahan him.. lolx.
its good tt he is active.. =)

just simply cant stop smiling while lookin at him.. he give me e cute faces.
even he cry, making noise.. he is just sooo CUTE!~!!!!
yiyi realli love winwin..

hope he enjoy this mini celebration..
when he grows up.. i will let him see all e pictures.. =)

WINWIN!! YIYI REALLI LOVES YOU LOADS..!!

2010-02-20T03:30:00.002+08:00

Please Appreciate...

Although im smiling always.. but i think i should b appreciated too..
dun take me for granted.. i always believe.. how i treat others, i wil b treated back e same..
but frm u, why am i always feel like.. u just simply enjoy my love, care and concern.
and getting over it... and taking it for granted..

No More "Thanks, XieXie, I Care, I Appreciate" frm u any longer..
am i just way too good?? or wad....??

will u miss "my morning call, my sms for breakfast, lunch, dinner or even movie" will u even think abt e times we r together...? im wondering...

wad had i been treated as...?
plz.... answer me....

answer.......

2010-02-17T19:57:00.002+08:00

Nothing gonna b e same again.. ..
i gonna learn this frm now on... really hv to learn...
cuz e world will not stop for me.. that's real life..

no matter... am i tearing, angry, jealous, hating.... etc..
i have to FORCE myself to bring up a SMILE..
although i noe i cant do it infront of everyone.. but at least to those who dun deserve to see e weakness side of me... cuz they will tend to OVERSTEP it.. and take advantage of it..
treat me like an IDIOT... treat me like i should do it tt way...

~~PLEASE~~ KINDLY APPRECIATE ME WHEN IM AROUND...
and DUN REGRET WHEN IM GONE....

cuz i believe in myself... one day...
u will release.. u had lost someone like me... i believe i deserve better..

ALTHOUGH I AM SILLY!!!! but......
after finding tt im gone... U WILL FELT TT U R DEN E SILLY ONE!!~
so, ~~please~~ kindly appreciate everyone single one ard u...

2010-02-17T01:43:00.002+08:00

SILLY SERENE!!
SILLY ME!!

WHY....!?

why am i always leave e BEST for someone who dunno how to apprecaite it..
why am i always leave e MOST expensive one for someone who dunno hw to cherish it...
why am i always think of OTHERS before myself...
why am i always so stupid n silly..

i keep telling myself enough of being a silly one...
but why....??

why is it again and again... ??
wad am i? who am i?

FUCK SERENE KOH KAI WEN!!! CCB!!!

2010-02-15T13:33:00.001+08:00

SILLY ME!!

SILLY SERENE!!

but i will end all this frm now... ...

2010-02-12T02:04:00.002+08:00

是我想太多

** it takes 2 hands to clap and 1 hand to slap... **

Okay.. Now i understand this sentence...
maybe... zhi shi wo yi xiang qi yuan...
no one to blame only myself... for believing.. for thinking and dreaming..
again and again...

to an end PLEASE!!!
i had enough... u r not suffering.. but i am...
ni ke bu ke yi bu yao zai zhe yang....
bu yao zai dui wo hao le...
wo zhi de bu yao... ni ke bu ke yi bu guan wo...
ying wei.... all along... im just alone..
ended up, again... im slapping myself...

*wo ta ying wo zhi zi.. bu hui ku de*

2010-02-11T01:44:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to Serene Koh!!~!!

had enjoy myself this yr.. a fruitful and touching one..
with all my beloved coll, friends buddies and even family members..
I LOVE THEM...

Thanks everyone to make this happen on 10.02.2010..
im glad.. im not left alone.. im glad u all planned it nice and sweet..
although somethings are like shit.. but overall... i love it....

xie xie ni meng le..
wo zheng de zheng de hao gan dong.. muacks!!

2010-02-06T03:37:00.002+08:00

sleeping in my dream w penguin and wonder... ...
all i can do now is to wonder ... ...

i love my penguins..
cuz they are e one accompany w me when im lonely, tearing and also my happiness..
they are just my soulmate.. although they are just toy...
but somehow.. i felt they are there for me.. i love them...

wonder... wonder.... wondering... ...

2010-02-05T03:02:00.000+08:00

serene is sick and weak..

she simply dun like e feeling..
*no smile*

2010-02-04T03:04:00.003+08:00

~~DISLIKE!!!~~

why am i acting strong when im not again..
why e things i said doesnt seems e one i felt inside..?
wad will i gain..??

maybe... just dun wanna him worry...
maybe... just wanna him to give up on me...
maybe... just simply i cant gif him al he wans...
maybe... i dun dare to face...
maybe... i just wan to see him happy...

im not selfish this time round..
cuz.. i choose to hurt myself sliently den letting him noe like how i used to be..
all i wan..... is his xingfu, his smile and his laughter.. =)

2010-02-03T21:28:00.000+08:00

我的姐姐 ♥

she is e onli one who noes me and understand me..
e onli one tt give me best advise.. and i will reali run trut in my mind..
maybe just bcuz she is my sister.. she noes my pattern.. n action..
and i believe w all e past tt she had suffer w me..
i guess and believe she wans e best out of me...
im glad i have her as my sister... i really know she loves and dotes me..
jiejie.. xie xie ni..

i will remind myself.. and hope to meet u weekly...
so tt... i can have ur advise.. and im able to look into my problems and mistakes.
jiejie, sorry to make u worry for me.. and cause u so many tears..
i will b guai and cherish myself and my life ahead..
will let u see e xingfu of me... jiejie... xie xie ni..

u r No.1 jiejie in e whole world... wo ai ni..

2010-02-03T04:21:00.001+08:00

因为你的快乐, 我折则离开。。! !

but still.. i will b strong.. jiayo !!~!!
cuz u made me believe..
someone will sure cherish and appreciate me..

waiting.. ..

2010-02-02T02:11:00.003+08:00

he wrote:

"tinks tat to asked is not require if u dun need, dun owned if it's a option to have it, dun promise if you can't kept it. Most importantly of all , dun say it if u never mean it~~"

my tot:

"no wonder i always felt like an option.. cuz he has nv tot of owning it.. =)"

nw i understand.. =)

2010-02-02T00:39:00.003+08:00

all the Past Post deleted..

wad r here remains here.. all older post cant be seen..
cuz we cant change e past but we can only change now and catch e future..
no point looking at it.. cuz its not gonna happen again...

我放手了 ! ! 因为我真的累了 ! !

不是因为我不是那个爱你, 等你的我。儿是我真的累了。。。。

2010-02-01T02:26:00.002+08:00

Too sick to cry, to tired to try

tearing in e public is normal for me..
but tearing while shopping alone seems ages ago...

but today.. 31.01.2010 i did tt again.. silly me..
just cuz of someone whom dun care n apprecaite wad i had done..
yet im all alone back again..

being a silly ger to look forward..
being a silly ger to wait..
being a silly ger to search..
i keep asking why why why~ but im just like tt..

dreaming to b a 小女人 is oso my fault?
why cant i find someone to protect to relay on...
why am i always just an option to them?
why am i always their stepping stone?

i keep repeating i wont b that silly again..
but why would u be e one holding and pulling me again..??
am i really those rubbish tt dun worth anyone to put a little tot of effort?
i just need a strong wall to relay on... a shoulder to cry on...
i just need someone to b there for me.. tts all..

isn't im not trying..
is just tt no matter how hard i try..
ended up im always e one w e broken heart... =(

*cry again on 31.01 and 01.02*

2010-01-31T12:02:00.001+08:00

为什么 ..... ???

Am i really that jialat.. that no one wil cherish e present of me ?

2010-01-30T02:33:00.001+08:00

Speechless..

i only can be speechless.. i dun have e right to say anything....
30th of Jan... A date i will nv forget...

miss, miss, miss.. i only can MISS...

but down in my heart.. imy,ily ~

2010-01-28T04:31:00.002+08:00

Nice ~ ♥

able to understand... able to know... able to imagine...
but..... im simply unable to get u out of my head/mind/tots/heart..

im tryin.. i do.. im really tryin..
*ni de siao rong is wo wei siao de yuan ying*

yesh.. she is e one..

2010-01-27T03:44:00.000+08:00

可不可能呢 . . . ? ♥ ♥ ♥

2010-01-26T00:34:00.002+08:00

我真的很想他 !!!!

对不起, 我爱你 !!!!

2010-01-25T03:13:00.002+08:00

U Had Forgotten...

guess... im right to say soo...
that u had long forgotten e DATE tt u promise u will accompany me to overcome wadever diff i hv.. and will face it with me.. but ........................................................................
although im just a "nobody" to u anymore.. but still im afraid of tt day coming...
u had long forgotten, the pain, the tears im hving on tt DAY!!
but where were u when e day arrive.. u r far far away frm me...

did it ever come across ur mind abt tt very date IM LONELY n AFRAID OF?
so u still remember? DO U?

im reali afraid.. who will accompany me to overcome tt DAY!?
im scare... im afraid..

IM LOST!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2010-01-24T02:46:00.002+08:00

im wondering..

sometime is really my fault or ppl just wanna put e blame on me?
im okay to b blame if u feel beta..
but have u ever felt how i feel den?

when.. u forgotten im waitin for u at home hungry.. and u just goes e way u wan it to be..
and now.. i nv throw u alone.. u nv mention anything today too. i tot it's just another blank date..
but ended up u being angry and ignore me.. for me forgetting.. and im home alone..
yet u enjoying outside.. and ppl accompanying u too..

so is tt fair?
or am i just a stepping stone?
wad have u all treated me as? need me, u all find me.. when dun need? who and wad am i to u?

ignore e way u wan it to be.. dislike me e way u wan it to be..
have u all cherish me when im around?

have u all give a tot to me too?
wad if today i waited and ended up a blank date again? will u feel e way im feeling now?
I HATE e FEELING..
i hate e way u all put e blames on me.. for nuthing and im being ignore..
and im e one being affected.. im e one tearing.. AND
u all enjoying away...

WAD AM I ACTUALLY TO ALL OF U!?
im really wondering.. .. .. ..

*cry*

2010-01-23T02:38:00.003+08:00

SunFlower..

im wondering.. how many of u actually stil remember i love Sunflower..
e sunflower tt ppl noes tt i like.. will cheer me up... will reali make me smile..
im wondering.. who actually remember?

SunFlower on my bday again?
anyone..? =(

im wondering.. .. ..

2010-01-22T04:30:00.003+08:00

下一站，幸福
*thumps up*

this show reali touches my heart!
i realli dunno how to explain e feeling while im watching it..
every part.. just make me have "tt" feeling..
and tears just rolling down.. .. .. ..

maybe i'm .......

but still i have to tell myself its just a drama..
i have to b strong like 梁慕橙.. she is reali a strong mama and ger...
without selfishness.. she choose to b e one who hold on e pain and wans her love ones' to be happy.
if onli i can do e same and learn from her...
jiayo ba.. Serene..!! =)